Live like never before

do not be indecisive

2012-02-19T02:25:00.002+08:00

Hi world, its like 230am right now and I have been lying on my bed for 3 hours plus already and yet im still awoke. Haha! It had been practically a boring night for me and thus I planned to turn in earlier, chatted with (tu) and he is
sleeping soundly right now. I really love to chat with my loved ones till I fall asleep but I simply cant be selfish. :)
haha then my best girlfriend whatsapp me and we turn into a really big stalker and carried on our mission on intensive findings of information and like some PI, trying to put all this small pieces of clue together to get the conclusion.
This time mission conclusion was rather sucky and disappointing.
So yeah, just a little advice out there to all that,
Women are just like policewomen~~

Oh yeahhhhhhh! Time to sleep, so that I can wake up and seeeeeeeeeee
You!^^

Goodnight,
Hang on there!

Don't find fault, find remedy

2012-02-16T22:53:00.004+08:00

Hi people.
I have just changed my school portal PIN number.
Yeah, You know I'm afraid some people will hack into my account and view my results in there. Cause' there are really people who are capable of doing so. I'm serious.
Yet people whose results were being seen by the whole world, do not know a single thing that happened.
P.S Provided that I can remember my PIN number.....
For... on the day of results posting day, i might be too excited to know what's my score. In case I cant log in to my portal that day, somebody whom I trusted can help me view my results. Lol. I still remembered how excited I was last semester wanting to know my results, but yet I dragged my feet home as I was super afraid, And I simply shut my eyes before I view the result page. Ha ha, I'm sure my feeling will be like this..... A.L.W.A.Y.S

Just a random post right now, wanting to say type some random stuffs that appear in my mind now.
Just wanna to ponder.
In a day, How many hands can we reach out to?
Every day, most of us were simply to busy with our individual life, trying to pursue our perfectionism in life each day, some working hard to earn money, some studying hard for a good future.
How much time do we allow ourselves to sit down and really have a catch up with your close peers and also your loved ones?

Hm, how about making this a formal thing to the world, of...
"An hour each day for your loved ones"
Hm, perhaps everyone might argue 24 hour a day isn't enough, #WHEREGOTTIME!
HA HA, if only there is 25 hour? Making each last hour a time for our loved ones?
How great would that be, yeah?

Not only we are feeling good, the one that we are catching up with also feel good.
It will be good to hear their stories, share their burden, multiply their joy, dividing their sorrow.

Yeah... If only, Life could be just,so,simple.
Then, I bet there will be no sad people in this world, anymore right?

Life's unfair,
to me, it seems like a whole new world, for you to figure your way out, wonder your way through and then slowly gather your principles and lastly shaping it INTO the WAY of YOUR L.I.F.E.

If words were to say out so easily from your heart/mind/mouth,
then why will there still be unspoken words?

If actions were to prove louder than words,
then why will there still be the opposite way done?

If kindness will be reciprocated,
then why will there still be people taken for granted?

If sharing is caring,
then why will there still be selfishness?

If its meant to be,
then why are there still people who love each other that can't be together?

If learning is growing,
then why are there still rebellious people around?

Why does happiness not last?
Why does nothing last?
Why is change the only constant in this world?

I'm just ranting out what ever thoughts that I have in my mind, :D

R.I.P Whiteney Houston

2012-02-12T19:37:00.003+08:00

Beautiful songs, with meaningful lyrics.
I remembered singing this song as a class to the people @Bishan Home.
Those people are actually mentally challenged.
I remembered vividly that I was tearing and simply crying, letting tears flow down as I sang this song.
So emotional,

Lyric.

I believe the children are our are future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone to fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

[Chorus:]
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

[Chorus]

And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

Hey darling

2012-02-12T03:03:00.003+08:00

Hi DARLING, its 3.05am now.
I miss you so much that I did this............

:D

(tu)

Being challenged in life is inevitable

2012-02-12T01:32:00.004+08:00

Yeah, Indeed. True. Correct. You're right.
I have been rather emo after knowing the JPSAE results that my juniors gotten on the last few days of January. Many people made it into a good school. Many of them went into their first few choices, and there courses and school were much more wonderful than mine. Where have I landed myself at? Some shyttty really SHYT to the MAX school. A place where by I hated everything. ITS MAINLY ONE SOLE REASON why I did not choose SP. I WAS REALLY DUMB. Scold what so ever you want at ME, for I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT WAS I THINKING BACK THEN, last year, at this point of time. I was so oblivious to my future, to my thoughts, to my decision, to the world surrounding me. I am such a letdown to my family... And to even my friends around me... :'(

It was really a struggle for me now, in MY SCHOOL, MY COURSE.
Everything around me, Even in my class some body wanted to challenge me. How competitive can this be?
Now I really have a clear vision of why and how things happened.
It must be a plot. A set up plot. I was like being dug down into that hole.
Luckily I did not put my guards down totally. Thank God I douched the bullet. This song is THEN FOR me. :')

I was totally repulsed by your sickening actions and your evil thoughts.
Come on Come on, and TRY TO TEAR ME DOWN, I will be rising from the sky.

Yes I admitted that I have broke down in school for the fact of where I am landing myself at right now. For making such a dumb decisions to choose IT as part of my 12 choices, for not being known enough for MY existence in my class.

My results maybe quite okay, but THAT DOES NOT IMPLY THAT I'M LIKING OR ENJOYING WHAT I AM STUDYING. Get that clear in all of your mind!

I'm just forcing myself to really study hard and GTFO from this shyytty place with a good CERTIFICATE that will bring me to somewhere local U.

There are thoughts racing through my mind to transfer out transfer out transfer out.
BUT HEY, I know ...
Things CANNOT BE THIS WAY. I MUST NOT RUN AWAY FROM PROBLEMS WHEN EVER THERE IS.
I MUST NOT GIVE UP THINGS HALF WAY. I MUST NOT BE SUCH A COWARD. I MUST FACE IT BRAVELY!

I have come this far, invested so much, energy drained in, money pumped in, effort put in. I have contributed in some of the many ways.
I cant get SAY GO MEANS GO..
No matter what, I have to pull through this shytty stages in my fking life.

*On a lighter note, I have never been using so much vulgar and neither am I a vulgar person. But hey, ITS STUDIES IN THIS school in this COURSE, in this CLASS that mould me into such a person :'(
I'm sad too, and i needed to change... I know.. Give me time to regain my feelings..

KCQ, don't don't give up! Must not give up!
Prove to him YOU CANNOT BE DEFEATED THAT EASILY.
"I'm speaking about him, and this obviously shows that I have not get over the fact that he's such a person" I need some time. Meanwhile, I will just ignore it, AND AT THE SAME TIME, prove to him, I CAN DO IT.
I will just continue to be a kind person and let things run on by itself, while I just play my own part, continue with my life, striving hard.
Let him carry to be this way, for that his life, He chooses the way and he will end up the way he chose.

All the best to myself.
Setbacks and obstacles are just like the vehicles in the traffic light.
WHERE GOT TRAFFIC LIGHT ALWAYS GREEN ONE?!?!?! #yousiao
Strive hard KCQ.
Red man- OBSTACLES!
Orange man- REST!
Green man- CHIONG!
I just go on and live with my principles.

-Give with no returns

:D
At least, I'm releasing out my emotions by writing into words form.

At the end of the day, Its me, my mentality and how I see myself to be.
I see what I aim for,

JiaYous, Gambatek, All The Bless, God Bless!

YOURS TRULY;

its one of a kind

2012-02-12T00:50:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha. Hey Look! This are one of the first few shy photos that we took!
Even our hands are placed in a similar way! :> How coincidence! Haha.
Looking back at those past photos, it made me felt like everything was really moving so fast. It made me smiled. It heart warming knowing that we had been together for three months in a blink of an eye. How wonderful, how amazing, how beautiful.

Now with that pose we had in the above picture will no longer be the way it is,
for our hands are now interlocked with each other :D

This 3 months had really been my wonderful sweet lovely days! :>
I simply enjoyed each seconds that were well-spent with my beloved, darling
(tu) He is definitely one person who have seen all sides of me

1. Me being so sloppy at home
2. Me don't wanna wake up from bed and he had to pull me up several times
3. Me being really fugly with all the messed up hair after putting down my tied up hair/after blowing hair
4. my fats in swimming costume and the all wet hair in the pool
5. my stressed up face when handling codings

haha just someone whom i can be really comfortable with, just being real, myself.
his shoulder super (Y) Made me fall asleep within minutes, i like how comfortable it is for me. :')
i like how he comes to my house as though we're a family
i like the way he treats my family members especially my youngest sister
i like the long messages he sent me, and the morning and good night messages
i like how he pinches my face hehehehe
i like his muscular shoulders
i like the way he smiles at me

thank you for being really patient with me :>
haha with me, confirm must have patient one! because i am certainly somebody who can drives anyone crazyyyyy/maddddddddddd.

I'm really glad to have you ;')
thanks so much for letting me know the importance of me to you like each day

Love You..
<3

I'm a kind soul

2012-01-26T00:14:00.002+08:00

HI, I do not wish to scold anyone or anybody.
Therefore, I wish people can co-operate with me,
Make things be done.
You are sick and tired, I'm too, Everyone is too.
Why not let's all work hard together?
To achieve something that we aim for.

P.S I do not wish to turn into someone who you may dislike ;)

The one who I am proud to have

2012-01-18T01:47:00.002+08:00

Hi my Lovely (tu)! Thank You for being a boyfriend, the one who never fails to text me Good morning and Good night each day! Thank you for being more than a boyfriend to me.

Its great to know that I'm on your mind when you woke up,
Its awesome to know that I'm on your mind before you get to sleep.
Its blessed to have you to care think love me

A nice (tu)

I can't imagine... Days without you to be soon in different country... :(
NeverTheLess, I know you will say "Short pain better than long pain, so lets just rather have a REAL short good bye so that we won't bear to leave each other THAT much!"

I'm MissIng You.

Good Night To You! <3 My Lovely (tu)

Must not let stress overtakes me

2012-01-18T01:02:00.006+08:00

YO. HOW ARE YOU PEOPLE?

Its time for some self reflection yeah? Ha ha Every human being certainly needed this!:D Self reflection makes one know his/her strength and weakness and can also act that a reminder to self, also and helping us remember thing and the feelings that we felt at this point of time.

I have been arguing with my teachers in school. Making quite a din here and there due to ANSWER KEY! I am desperately in search of answer key! I am a person who is not confident of my own answers at all. I want a answer key to be my back up, to be there for my reference when I encountered any problem. I really have this tendency of checking if I had gotten the correct answers.
Am I wrong to be LIKE.THIS? Tell Me.

I have been reprimanded for getting answers from all my tutors.
My tutors simply DO NOT want to pass us answers for the past year papers no matter how I tried to ask.
What's this policy? Allowing Students to practice questions withOUT answer key for exams? Hoping that the student will do well and know what's right and what's wrong?
Are you kidding me? Seriously, I do not get this policy left right up and down.
:'(

Perhaps... I should slowly adapt to NYP's rules whereby answer key are not given and I should just freaking do my questions, If i do not know my answers then go and approach my tutors eh?
EH THEY BETTER BE FREE FOR US TO APPROACH THEN! -_-

Tolerance level towards this matter : 0%

I'm HUNGRY.
I'm HUNGRY TO EXCEL!

And yeah...
Maybe I have been giving myself too much unnecessary stress? God knows.
But I just WANT TO PUSH MYSELF AS FAR AS POSSIBLE.

I guess I'm nuts? Too hungry for it. Dying to EXCEL. :D
Recently I have been so stress up with School Work and ESPECIALLY CODES!
Till the extent that I HAVE NO MOTIVATION to carry on with my work

Then a friend of mine initiated a conversation with me through Fb
There is quite a long motivation given to me:

just remember one thing
always be OPTIMISTIC in life
when things go bad
tell urself that this is just one small boulder that blocks ur path
overcome it!!
what doesnt kill u makes u stronger
i had faced failures in my POLY life..
really..
dam hurt and lost
dunno how to continue
but when i think that others can do it why cant i?
ur life is in ur hands
just do ur best and u will get the best that u deserve
life is not always an upwards hill
there are times when u fall into real big pot holes
that's when u stand up again and continue to climb
never give up and continue to climb till u reach the submit
in life
imagine urself as a adventure person
in this planet
there are many hills and mountains for u to overcome
u conquer every mountain one at a time
start from a small hill first
then continue to advance and conquer higher ones
till the day u conquer the highest mountain
the everest
the day when u conquer the highest mountain, u would be at around 70 to 80 ler

Thank You, Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!! conquer all mountains and go through all obstacles and knock them down!

Its really self-note that: I am always thinking of... I CAN'T I CAN'T I CAN'T.
What ifs........ Then like this howwwwwww? Like that howwww?
I cannot la........ I DON'T LIKE.......... I HATE.....................

ITS TRUE >:(

I must really GET RID OF THESE THOUGHTS
THESE EVIL THOUGHTS
AND I MUST START TELLING MYSELF I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
I CAN DO IT
yesssssssssssss I CANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN! *insert :D

Yeah! I must carrying with this status till longggg and longgggggg!
At least till my exams end!
At least for codings now, I'm done with the 10% part which is to be graded individually after CNY!
And tomorrow will be the last business presentation!:D
So I will be just left with Photography, NetWorking and OOPJ!
IT side, the weightage are REALLLY H.I.G.H & H.E.A.V.Y!
I canNOT afford to lose any at all!

WORK HARD PEOPLE.
Strive hard, my friends.

Want to BE THE BEST? YOU GOTTA BEAT THE BEST, KCQ~!:D
YEAH IM GONNA TO GIVE MY BEST.
MY HELL BEST.
PRESS ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

School life is getting a little better I guess?
My classmates are rather a bit more initiative, and approachable!
Lovely, I shall stop commenting. :D

Chinese New Year is drawing nearer....
I want to enjoy my cny to the fullest, in order to do that,
I MUST MAKE SURE I PACK MY FEELINGS, AND SETTLED MY STUFFS before I GO ON 100% CNY MOOD! BLAST ON MANZZZZZZZZZXZXZXZXZXZXZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!

I pray for a good health, to last my till the last day of my exams.

Just a kiss goodnight

2012-01-14T00:16:00.003+08:00

Hi, I have a song for you, Darling!(tu)

"Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
I'm caught up in this moment, caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this, let's just take it slow"

"No i don't want to mess things up, Let's do this right, Just a kiss goodnight"

Our 2nd month just passed few days ago! :D 11.1.2012! :D

Don't walk behind me, I might not lead. Don't walk in front of me, I might not follow. Just walk beside me, and we shall carry on our journey of life together. (tu)

LoveYou!
In the two months was quite a fun and accomplish one!
-We had numerous QT together, pouring out feelings and just talk anything under the moonlight!:D
-He came into my house and sat and had dinner as a family outside
-We went swimming together like finally you know 2 (tu) swimming, How adorable!
-We brought items to keep each other warmth for 2nd! (Shirt&blanket!)
-Camped in our hide out place and mug hard!:D

Thanks to You for keep travelling down to Jurong! It must have cost so much $$.
Really Appreciate You!:D I'm glad that distance is really not a challenge to Us!:D
It must be really tiring but you mentioned to me, "It's all worth it."
It was really touching, I'm glad that it was...
How we wished so much that we stay just a stone throw away! /:
Ha ha, Never mind, We love challenges!

Your smile always make me wanna smile along with you! :))))))))))))))))))))
Thanks for accepting me and loving me for who I am!:D
Thanks so much for your care and understanding (tu)

I'm glad to have you around too
Around me

When I was in need of help You would come along!
Thanks for bringing Joy into my life
Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!:D

Darling, I'm really eggciteddd for Holiday and I CAN'T WAIT HAHAHAHA!(:

Hmm, In our 3rd month to be,
It's really reallyyyy realllyyyyyyyy S.T.R.E.S.S to us.
So yeah Gonna to really FOCUS on our school work..
Do encourage one another even more, so that we have each other to support on
when we fall back
Don't give Up! :D
Prove prove prove prove prove
So Let's work hard together and Achieve our Excellence!:D
(tu) <<<<< Steady ALL.THE.WAY!

LET'S CHIONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
s.t.e.a.d.i.l.y!

<3 to You!:D

whats left for me is a sense of lonliness

2012-01-12T08:37:00.002+08:00

Hi readers of smilewithluvv. Today is Thursday which meant its the fourth day of school.
Its only fourth day of school and stacks are work are simply getting heavier and are all piling up.
I have got six projects assignments in total.
EPS
Photography
Statiatics
Econs
Networking
OopJ
And I am done with Eps, just in case you do not know what it means,
It actually stands for Effective Presentation Skill.
I am sad to say... I actually screwed up my presentation!
I felt like literally go and bang myself to the WALLZ once I am done.
Before I presented, I read out all by myself the speech once.
And I tossed it aside and went up to present. While I was waiting for my turn, I already forgotten my part.
And all that has been floating on my mind is simply NOTHING BUT MY SCRIPT! My friend was already presenting so I cant possibly go and take my script.
Then, it was my turn to SPEAK ALREADY!!!!!! Seriously WTS...
I am not sure what am I speaking about, I was simply Mental Block,
Really have no idea what to say. My starting was GOOD, THEN CAME A PART.... I was like "Storm, flood and drought"
and then I stared at my slide and stone. Everyone jaw dropped. Then I was super lost. Lost into the silence.
I was not even trying to think. All I wanted was.. scrripttttt, MY SCRIPT.
And FML, I WENT TO SAY, ERRR SORRY CAN I GO BACK AND TAKE MY SCRIPT!.
Seriously, I fail....

Yeah after much emo thoughts and analysis
I have come to conclude why the hell im like that:
1. My heck care attitude towards Gsm
2. I did not practice without my script enough
3. I was very reliance towards my script
4. My mental block and yet I was not evening trying but kept thinking of scripts
5. Did not do cue card, ended up reading with big a4 paper
6. I was physically ill as I was sneezing and having flu through out(i think this more towards excuse tho..sigh)

I need to adapt my thinking
I must be rely on answers too much.

Nothing is easy, DRILL THAT IT YA MIND KCQ.

the sun came out and the stars come down

2012-01-08T02:25:00.006+08:00

Hiiiiiiii Folks! :D I am updating here.

Today has been a rather meaningful and fruitday day for me!
Guess what? I only slept for 2 hours and it lasted me the whole day and now still feeling so afresh! I wondered will I still be this energetic when my school really starts! Oh by the way, My school is starting this coming Monday.
That shall be an exciting day for those students who are collecting their results!

Let me start sharing with you why my day was great
I woke up at 645am in the morning and then trained down to Tampines to do some "Community Service Work" which is to interact with the eldery!
Our jobs are to mingle around with them and teaching them how to fold lanterns for CHINESE NEW YEAR! :>
They welcomed me so enthusiastically to have a chat with them and they are really keen to learn how to fold the lanterns! :D
At first no doubt I do felt a bit of awkwardness in breaking up the ice among us~
But for everything, first step is the hardest and with initiative.
So I simply approached them with a smile and it went smoothly!
The elderly were so happy learning the lanterns and they can really learnt fast!
Not only that, there are also very innovative and they came out with their own designs! After several attempts and messiness, many beautiful lanterns were made by them! :D Then, loud applause went by! We were all overjoy.
Seeing the smiles on each of their faces really makes me smile with them. :')
Its a good felt feeling. If only I have the photo, I will upload them, :')
The elderly went home with at least a lantern each! H.U.A.T A.H!
Sharing of joy is multiply! So true, :>
We bid goodbye and I do felt appreciated by them. Nice people(Y)

So there goes my beautiful morning spending with fun-loving elderly^^

Then I headed down with bbf to Clementi Mall and KOI there!
I bought a large Black Tea Marrchiato, even though I do not have the feel for it!
Sadly, *******************My flu came to me in the afternoon and it accompanied me all the way till now, SHOO please. On top of that, I woke up with a sore throat this morning! I do hope I get better, As i could not afford to miss school!

How awesome, First day of school = Formal Wear.
After KOI, I went to do some productive studying, :D Which is studying some bull shytty stuffs which I can't wait to get rid of as soon as I graduated from Y1!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have got this bull shyyyty test coming up when my school starts,
Bless Me! :)

I DISLIKE YOU, NETWORKING.
But oh wait, I need to love something in ORDER TO DO WELL.
Well, Love you plenty then! <3

Hmmm. Then Went to shop around :)

Bus-ed down to West Coast Plaza and met up with my EPS members and get some rehearsals done!

Was lucky enough to have a free ride home, But unfortunately, I got locked outside my house as I had forgotten to bring my Key with me.
Went down to my Cousin's house and spent some quality time and "Catch up" a little with them there! Its been quite long since this happened though! :D

~Everyone is moving on with life~Trying their utmost best in everything~
Just gotta strive hard~and nothing else~BUT~H.A.R.D!

-
I shall end my post with:

Just wanna see ya handsome face! :-)

things will always get better

2012-01-07T03:09:00.003+08:00

Hey people! Hello, its like 310am now. I have been rolling on bed for like an hour already.
I do not know why am I not tired... And I realised im only left with three hours to sleep,
Because I am waking up later to bless the eldery house to decorate Chinese New Year stuffs.
Hehe but its like Tampiness......... Hm. Im used to travelling though.
However, I know that travelling really costs so much! One trip from hg to jurong costs like two hours for (tu) to travel over!!!/: Its really sweet to hear from him, "Its all worth it, even if you want me to cab down, im more than willing too"
Really really really really sorry about it and thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks so much to my Darling.
You can really be the most hardworking boyfriend on Earth, if not, In My Heart!<3
'Distance does not matter, whats matter is the trust and honesty'
LoveYou.

So yeah, You can actually take it as I have three weeks of holiday because this week is my elearning week.
I simply cant wait for my S2 holiday! From then, Bernard Goh shall pronounce my world!:D
And then I can start planning my 18th birthday which im already getting so egggggcitedddddddddddddd!
Then if possible, I want to learn how to bake/cook and learn driving! Till then, I can cook for my loved onessssss and drive around to anywhere I want to!:)

Im getting older soon, which also means a more mature thinking and more responsibilties on me.
Age increase, shoulder weight also increasing!

Oh by the way, I am on diet mode now.. Whereby im starting to WATCH my diet when I eat now.
i have reflected about it... Last year I have always been eating sososo much!
my one meal can eat up to two person portion or sometime even more!/:
I was like the dustbin for my friends whenever they cant finish their food!
This year I do not want to help them already.
This is really so scary!
Do not ever think that you wont grow fat!
Because I kept having that mentality and hence I grew fatter T.T
Now im having quite a hard time to slim down... x.x

Today has been one of my happiest day for this year, :-)
I went jw swimming complex for swimming with (tu)
Then I brought him to my house and sit!
Followed by a nice dinner together with my family:)
And yay, I received Pineapple tart from him! Love it so much, want to eat it asap!
A memorable experience and great QT spent!
"Money is not necessary the key to happiness" is what we derived from our r/s!:)

Given money and time, I would choose the latter.
Thanks (tu) for your words of encouragements for me.
When school starts for me, I would expect myself to be really hardworking everyday,
AND put in effort in my school work.
Time keeps ticking off, not a laughing matter any longer.

'no pain, no gain'
For (tu) hey once school starts I know the time we spent together will be much lesser,
But still, we have got our text messages!:) And dont forget to feed our teddy each week!^-^
Lets work hard for this last lap of year1 together and move on as one to achieve our results!
Prove to our parents, We Can!:D we have one another to fall on, to rely on, to spur on!
Continue to motivate one another while we slowly yet steadily crawl to our results! :')
You'll never be alone. JiaYous! Look inside your heart!(:

Hey. Now time for personal timeee...
Mentally mentally mentally!
I.can.do.it Even though its tough, I must still have a positive mindset and JUST DO IT! Do the right thing.
I gotta just clear my mind and clear my doubts!!MInd over Body!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I must put in effort so as to see results!:D
JiaYous!(:
YOu have come so far, dont throw it away.

Faith, hope and glory.

Look forward

Hmmmmmmmmm its 350am why doesnt my sleepiness hits in yet?/;

2hours to sleep? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Goodnight to Smilewithluvv!<3!!!!!!!

never had i expected

2012-01-06T14:21:00.002+08:00

Never had i expected myself to land up in such a fucked up situation

This week is my e-learning week and i simply...... have to submit online work to teacher.

NETWORKING.
THE Fking subject, which i will fking fail it.

Take a look at mine idiotic answer.

Q8. Host A is sending 30 datagram to Host B. Assume that the sequence number and acknowledge number starts from one. If the order of transmission is as follows:

i. First transmission is 10 datagram
ii. Second transmission is 5 datagram
iii. Third transmission is 10 datagram
iv. Fourth transmission is 5 datagram

Enter the sequence number of Host A and acknowledgement number of Host B for the above scenario.
-- Q8i a. From Host A to Host B, Seq ____ to ____ *
Enter 2 numbers: e.g. 100,300
ANS: 100,300

-- Q8i b. Acknowledgement from Host B to Host A, Ack ____ *
Enter number: e.g. 200
ANS: 200

-- Q8ii a. From Host A to Host B, Seq ___ to ___ *
Enter 2 numbers: e.g. 100,300
ANS: 100,300

-- Q8ii b. Acknowledgement from Host B to Host A, Ack ____ *
Enter number: e.g. 200
ANS: 200

-- Q8iii a. From Host A to Host B, Seq ___ to ___ *
Enter 2 numbers: e.g. 100,300
ANS: 100,300

-- Q8iii b. Acknowledgement from Host B to Host A, Ack ____ *
Enter number: e.g. 200
ANS: 200

-- Q8iv a. From Host A to Host B, Seq ___ to ___ *
Enter 2 numbers: e.g. 100,300
ANS: 100, 300

-- Q8iv b. Acknowledgement from Host B to Host A, Ack ____ *
Enter number: e.g. 200
ANS: 200

SEEN THE SIMILARITIES

i know... if my this fked up attitude continues,
I will S-U-R-E fail

But I simply have zero interests in NETWORKING

Studies

2012-01-05T20:25:00.002+08:00

Hello Everyone.
I dislike Networking, It makes me feel like sleeping.
Once I flipped through Networking book, I started to Yawn.

But what to do....
I have got test coming up soon,
and my Exams consists of 50% of my overall Networking grade.

Oh, OH, Oh!

Save me.

smile is the greatest weapon

2012-01-04T22:52:00.003+08:00

Hello reader of smilewithluvv! Oh hey and I realised its my very first post of the year 2012!
How is everyone?:) Have you set your resolution for the thia brand new year?:)
Shall share my resolutions of year 2012:

1. Not to criticise NYP
2. Get a gpa of 3.8 for all my sem
3. Be a good girl friend
4. Be good to my family members
5. Have a positive mindset in life
6. Get slimmer
7. Learn how to drive

Yeah, I am always having negative thoughts in life... Maybe this is one of the reasons why I am giving up so easily
I could hardly motivate nor push myself forward~
I guessed someone/something must keep pushing me forward.
All in my mind is thinking of excel, and then I will start to add in my additional stress plus negative thoughts of....
What ifs, if, cannot be done, I cant take it anymore etc.......
I often let my emotions took control over me :(
This is definitely something really bad....
Its hard to get rid of this feeling too
But I gotta say, I must be able to make it!!!!

Happy 2012!;))))))), enjoy

Love

2011-12-31T02:11:00.002+08:00

"Its V's day,

Facebook is so full of valentine's atmosphere now,
I dread going out later, because I would definitely see people holding gifts on their hands,
couples being so sweet together, in each other's arms and holding their gifts.
Valentines' day is mainly for couples to be together, and more towards a romantic day?
I dislike seeing couples that are so sweet together,
and i always find people who are so sweet to be so patient, thoughtful to buy gifts for their loved ones.
I wonder why am i thinking it this way now?
Wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.
Everything seems to come and go.

'its is more blessed to give than to receive;

im never expecting anything "

L-o-v-e.

ITS SO AMAZING HOW LOVE IS, its also how amazing it was to make me fall in love again, to make me accept love again, to make me know how to love again.

:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

My Darling (tu)

Its really nice and lucky of me to know him,

Bernard Goh Jean Hang, is definitely someone who i love and be thankful for! <3

My lovely boyfriend, who understands me just by my actions. Without my mouthing a single word, he will know what i wanted to do, he will understand what are my intentions of doing.

I can no need to explain that much and he will simply knows what i meant, that's all because i have a common thinking with him. Our brain simply clicked well together,

Not only that, our hands are fitted so perfectly too, minds and hearts are attached (;

Ever since the day I know him, My life gets better. I simply felt the peace I have when i was beside him.

Even sitting beside him not speaking a single thing makes me feel so relaxed.

The sweet smile on his face will make me smile along with him.

He always thought of me, thought for me, A very caring person. Study me so well, My darling, If i'm your exam paper, You would definitely excel in it! <3

When I'm busy with my schedule, he understands me the most. He compromised. Even though he understands but deep down in heart, there will definitely be a sadness in it. However we still love each other deeply. We are always talking to each other asking about our relationship, keeping it healthy with our target to future together. We talked things out to make it clear for us in terms of priorities. We worked things out when things got clashed with our dates. We do all sorta ways to make it be a better solutions.

Darling, I like the way how we both struggled on in terms of situations that we are caught up with.

I like the way we give time to each other for QT!<3

I like how we are now. We're helping each other to move forward together.

And then, moving on till we both aged! And count each other white hairs, :D

Thank You so much. :D Really,

Its a blessing to know you at this year 2011, and we happily got together on 11.11.11

Ever since 1.1.11 You let me seen the time, 1,11/11,11 whereby its important to me,

You made me felt so associated to the number 1 since that date you confessed and the day we got together. :D

It all happens on 1, From then on, I fell in love with number 1,11,111,1111,11111,11111, ha ha simply anything related to number ONE. :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I have grown sweeter you know why? Because everyday I will be given honey from you!

ha ha you sweet lovely messages to me each day.

May this lasts long alright! <3

I know I won't have diabetes because yours is artificial sweetening rights? :)))

When I am with you, My cheeks will be sour, You know why?

Cause I will keep smiling and laughing. :D

Really smiling happily, :)

Looking forward to everyday being with you

Ever since I am with you

You turned out to be one of the purpose in my life, for me. :)

Thanks for making me believe in love again, next had i expected.

On the last day of year 2011, I just want to let you know

I love You!

Lets move on to 2012 together,

and achieving more and more accomplished things!

doing more and more good deeds together!

drawing the both of us closer and closer,

working hard to making a good future!

loving one another more and more each day!

treating one another good and with respect!

trusting one another more and more each day!

Darling(tu)

Happy New Year Eve!

NYP

2011-12-31T02:03:00.003+08:00

"Booohooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
Woke up, first time chiong for my phone,
'opened' up the message, I saw this word: BUSINESS.
I was very happy, then i saw N... and it was NYP!LOL.
Then the first thing that came to my mind was, wa, sian liao lahr, gotta travel one hr each day bodoh.
and so, next thought, aiyah! also good:-) Convenient, no need take bus or change bus!
but need to change train from green-red though!
AHAHAHAAHAA.
Its Business Informatics by the way."

"NYP facilities cui, cca are limited.

sadly like no dragon boat after viewing its website.
ohman. i wanted it.
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR."

The above are from my blog post, after I first received my school posting results.

Hey, Im from NYP..........................................................................................................

My bestfriend PS and I till now still can't get over the fact that we are from NYP.

We simply dislike our school to the maximum. But hey, Seriously My school isn't good.

And not only that my classmates weren't that nice after all.

I even met some really jerk people in there too, all these are really making my world collapse,

Sometimes, I can't stand it at all. I do not have any close friend there.

Okay, Though its not an important fact right? T___T

But everyone at least need someone to turn to. :'( #ForeverAlone

Thank God my studies are still alright for the Semester 1, and blessed me to be inside Director List.

I want to work hard and get into Director List again. But..... (realised I'm using the word but and this obviously shows that i have little confidence in me, IM REALLY SERIOUS, IM FREAKING SERIOUS.) I am afraid. I am worried. All about my modules for this semester, because I KNOW NUTS ABOUT my modules, SCREW IT or whatever you want to name it. Seriously, I can go and bang the wall. Why is this semester so difficult?

I'm afraid I can't handle next year modules.... Bless Me.

Since I am already travelling so far........ EVERY DAY, Might as well I travel to NYP and work hard.

SO THAT I WON'T WASTE MY TIME, EFFORT AND MONEY

For my FUTURE, go for IT! :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Next Up------------- CCA.

CCA is another failure for me! Sadly :'( I was so enthusiastic that I placed my names in almost ALL CCAs in Nyp!!!!!!! And, They all spammed me. I remembered attending Chinese Orchestra, Badminton, Dragon Boat, Guitar Club, Boys Bridage Primers, NYAA. Haha Okay, Then My CCAs for Semester 1 are 3 CCAs: Guitar Club, BB and NYAA. I was actively participating in these 3 CCAs. True enough, Come to think of it.....................

With 3 CCAs and I managed to have this GPA is quite okay, <<< Though few of my friends told me that, BUT I don't accept it, for I still think that I should do better. For my aim has always been.... 3.8!!! :'((((((((((

I shall start off with Guitar Club, I bought a Guitar. And have been attending training but not on regular basis, thus, causing me to feel so LOST when i attend training. I dislike the feeling of being so LOST, hence, I quit!

Cause I was so lack behind that I have no determination or mood to carry on learning, so my poor darling guitar is rotting at home. Sigh, someway somehow, my time, money and effort were all drained in Guitar club.

I dislike the way I GAVE UP SO EASILY, I dislike the way I BACK OFF WHEN THERE IS CHALLENGES, i dislike the way I DID NOT CONTINUE, i dislike the way I DISAPPOINT PEOPLE. Sighs, :'((((((((((

I will take note of these^points and prevent them from happening in year 2012.

Then, NYAA. The only event the I was involved in planning is the Commissioning Event!

It made me known quite many of the people there.

And its through NYAA i came to meet L-O-V-E. That's where........... ALL the sweet things started, and happened, and happening! :)

Gotta say that planning that event is really irritating and bad...

So much time sacrificed, but yet the planning will not be of much help to me.

I merely stayed in that planning cause I was already called to be in charged. I am already given a role, I do not wish to be an irresponsible soul. :>

NYAA has quite many events that are of helping the community service and not only that I can exercise too, there is physical recreation.

I joined NYAA because i want to persue for Gold, but hey ask me if I had written anything into my NYAA book!

My answer will be simply a NO... Sighhhhhhhh :'((((((((((((

Lastly, Primers. THIS IS THE CCA THAT WAS NEVER EXPECTED ALL AT, and surprisingly it lasts.

I was the EXCO of Primers right now. I joined this CCA is about of the NDP event they have each year!

My dream is to march during NDP one day, therefore i joined in as Motivator, at least its related to NDP..

But I just wanna thank God that, Hey its through this CCA that I made awesome friends: MaMa Family.

2 girls who I can talk to and clicked well with, people who I can talk with nicely and in a fun way. :>

Love them!<3 Okay...... SO YEAHHHHH BONDING NEEDS TO BE DONE in exco team, OH YEAH.

But still, there is Mentors love! They are nice people!(Y)

Then lastly MY SCHOOL-NYP.

I must pick myself up no matter how many times i am gonna to fall in NYP

I was so horrible to the extent that all my classmates even teachers know that I dislike and criticise NYP so much so much so much. I am evil hehe.

SO YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...........

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION: Not to criticise NYP!

Last Day of Year 2011

2011-12-31T00:38:00.005+08:00

Yeah, This is the last day of year 2011, Every last day of a brand new year, I would sit down and reflect my own year and learn from bad things that happened, and rejoiced for the good things that happened in my life, and not forgetting to be thankful and grateful to people around me. :)

One of my this year New Year resolution is: Not to let any guys fall for me.

"I think i an
idiot
silly
stupid
dumb
hell
heartbreaker
stubborn
sucker
what-so-ever-bad-name-that-you-can-think-of

becos'
got...............................................................
People caring for me
loving me
being there for me
and yet, I DONT WANT.
AND AVOID IT TO WHEREEVER ANYWHERE I COULD.
Ain't i really as those mentioned above?

Sometime I was really so touched that people care for me
but i felt quite silly?
which i think you dont

whatever it is, its over let it be
I promised someone i wont be sad once this BRAND NEW YEAR starts.
Afresh.

but what on earth am i thinking?
girls or rather everyone should find it a happiness or an enjoyment
to be liked cared loved concerned for
but why am i feeling it the other way round ?
towards being stressed up totally
I VERY STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
whatever is it
BLAH"

The above was actually from my post in blog on 25th January. Yeah, My New Year resolution failed.

ZEN COREY SNG was the first one who broke the resolution i had

Don't know if I should be happy or sad? Hmmm, But on a lighter note,

This is definitely ONE person whom I'm really thankful to have known him.

We had officially known each other for one year already, He was there to care/love/console me

Actions prove everything, thanks for all your actions, :> Being there for me.

Really, Few memorable moments i could remember:

Crawl out out Stadium cos' we were trapped inside, Walking past flooding rain water, Appearing down stair my house on the dot of 12am on my birthday, buying things for me that i needed, surprised me with Mac outside my door when I tweeted I was hungry, Thanks so much for all these memories! :> Tho' many are epic and -___-

But still, thanks for appearing in my life and being such a good and nice soul to me, I know how much thank you won't be enough, Haha. Hm, Those we're not really contacting each other now.. Just want to wish ya all the best in ya moving ahead ya life, :D Keep up the determination in you! I do not know if you will read this post tho' Still, PUT YOUR HORSE COME. "I'm waiting... :D"

Why must things turn out to be this way?

2011-12-30T00:23:00.003+08:00

PLEASE IGNORE IF YOU CAN STAND PEOPLE'S RANTING/VULGAR/EMO-ing
SORRY IN ADVANCED

Wtf. When all last minute appeared, this happens.

PROJECT/FRIENDS?

TELL ME.

I HAVE NO MORE TIME TO SPARE.

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OKAY I DONT KNOW WHAT THE HECK IS HAPPENING T__________________T

IM HELL STRESSED UP

WHY MUST THIS HAPPENED BEFORE THE START OF A NEW YEAR???????????????

CANT I SIMPLY ENJOY AND RELAX MYSELF?!??!?!?!?!?!?!? :@ :@ :@ :@ :@ :@

DEAR NYP,
YOU CALL THIS A TERM BREAK?!??!??!?!!
WHEN I HAVE FREAKING 6 PROJECTS TO COMPLETE.
WTF
WHERE GOT TIME?!?!?!?!

YOU THINK WE GOD =.==.=.=.=.=.==.=.=.=.=..==.=.=..=.===.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.==.=..=.=

SIGHS
SIGHSSSSSSSSSSS

CAN I JUST SHOW ATTITUDE TO EVERYONE?
CAN I JUST SCREAM FROM WHERE I AM?

WTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

YEAH IM SIMPLY RANTING MY WAY HERE
=.=.=.=.=.=.==.=.=.==.=.=.=.=.=.=.=..==.=.=.==.=

*P.S i do not know why have i turned out to become so vulgar right now, when i do not usually WTF here or not
PARDON ME

sweetie (tu)

2011-12-27T02:40:00.002+08:00

Hello avid readers of smilewithluvv!:) Its like 245am right now. But I just had a terrible gastric pain which I cant really bear the pain, it hurts big time. I wished my boyfriend was here to accompany me hehe.
By the way, just would like to show off a little bit to all of you that I have an awesoMely amazing best boyfriend on Earth. All we wanted from each other is time. Both of us are so tight up with work, and time is never on our side.. :/

Today was a good dayzzz!!!! As I got to see my love<3
He accompanied my bestfriend and I to shop ard.
You all understand it yeah.. So yep
My boyf is a nice guy that pei me see clothings choose for me carry stufs for me.
Is like who will do this sia????!!!
thankz darling so much

Also two brains is needed better than one
With him ard,my troubles and stress divided!!!!

Yayyyy im a happy girl who loves her boyfriend lots

Just some random thoughts

2011-12-26T00:54:00.003+08:00

Its not good to feel alone too
Its so true whereby it takes two hands to clap
But is it really love when one side just love?
I used to think that even if one side just love, its still love.

I do not wish to judge people either
But r.s can really be so fucked up ain't it?

I have got friends going through different stages of love life now
Got first month, Broke up, got steady.

But but

I got my love :D Going strong

Thank You So Much for loving me, caring me, understanding me, accepting me.
:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Jingle belllssssss

2011-12-25T23:59:00.002+08:00

Hohohohoho

2011-12-25T23:40:00.004+08:00

Merry Merry Christmas!!!
And A Happy Birthday to My Beloved Mum! <3

BBSG

2011-12-18T14:23:00.002+08:00

Boy Bridage's SHARE A GIFT

As i was posting about the post where by i went to collect food items from houses!
On Friday night, we went to issue these hampers to the Cancer patients.
TARGET NUMBER TO HAMPERS: 1000
THE HAMPERS WE RAISED: 1138
Yay! :D

So yeah my reflection:

Before I entered the patient’s house, I felt a little afraid. I was not really sure of what to expect. Then I arrived at the patient’s house, he had opened the door and welcomed us with a wide smile. I sat on the sofa and the atmosphere was a little awkward as I do not know what to ask about the patient for I kept thinking in my mind that I must be sensitive when I ask any questions.
Soon, the conversation got better, and the patient shared his feeling once he knew that he was diagnosed with small intestine cancer. He also added in about how he overcame this fact. One day, he was told that he only has 3 months left. Fortunately, he has been living with his illness for the fifth year. He has been living life to this fullest, whereby he has a wide social circle and he attends activities organised by RCs very frequently. The reason behind him doing so is that, “Instead of keep thinking that he will die soon, why not just do whatever you want to do right now?” He just wants to do and try things that he wanted to. From this point, I have learnt that we should live life as though every day is our last day.
Next, he also admitted that he has tried to attempt suicide before. However, he stated that his loved ones play a very important role during this period of tough times. His wife has always been behind him rooting for him. Both of them put this thing in a very positive thought. They shared with us that, the patient himself is a very special person. He got one of the rare cancers in Singapore. Less than 10 people have it. In addition, he lived more than 3 months which is the happiest fact. I like how the way the couple put this situation as. Despite the fact of the major consequence of the cancer, they change their attitude and mentality in a brighter side. This taught me that it is always our mind set that sets your attitude in life.
He also told us that we should not expect too much for too much expectations come with much disappointment. Therefore, he said that no matter what we have to be strong and keep going, as life goes on. He advised us that the best is not to expect too much. Also, it does not matter how long you can achieve it, but you slowly achieve it, to the end point. One of the interesting questions that my group asked was, “Do you still have anything that you want to achieve as for now?” The patient replied wanting to visit Taiwan with his wife. This is because the couple did not travel to other countries before, and it’s his wife dream to visit Taiwan. The simply touched me. Then I thought of my family. I want to be able to earn lots of money and bring my family to overseas too… for we never travel to another country via plane before.
After hearing from the patent’s sharing, I have learnt that every life is precious. It is like if we want to do something, JUST DO IT. I’m thankful for my wonderful family members to have taken care for me for so many years. I am even more thankful to have complete and healthy family members, I wish for us to stay in pink of health and be happy each day.

school sucks

2011-12-14T10:38:00.004+08:00

Poly is really such a terrible place for me to live on execpt the fact that I am in the school with my darling, a place that called fate for me to have known him.
But other than that, certris paribus, everything sucks max.
So many backstabbers, two-faced much, only knows how to talk big, some are utterly selfish, really hypocrites, crazy competitor, secretly mugger, ask for wanting to know and in no intention to help, complain but yet be so nice, some simply suck up to you so that you will keep him or her in your group,
I dislike how all these people are. Okay I know everyone is not perfect. And I can admit at least one of the points I mentioned is what I saw in myself. But hey, everything has definitely got a limit right? Dont you agree??????!!!!!! Tell me.
I am searching for the answer. Oh perhaps the answer does not matters much to me but I wish those people can at least have some sense of thoughts and GO AND SENSE IT RIGHT!
Seriously stop being such a two faced
Stop speaking behind people's back
Stop acting like awwww im so good that you wana sweet talk me
Stop making fun of people behind them
Stop coming to me only when im needed
Stop pretending that you cared when all these questions that you asked are caused you are kpo
Stop pushing the blame to others when they are trying
Stop boycotting more and more people

Whatever is it im close to none of these people
And I wont want to be freaking involved
I just want to reach out to people that needs loves cares and help
I am not trying to change those above mention points
But I am just typing out my feelings since the start of the week,
The things I saw sensed reflected felt, I dislike this feeling
I dislike the way people are

And so school sucks so does you and you
Oh FML this negative thoughts of so whats the point of me attending school came floating in my mind again.
Shyt this to the max.

To make these thoughts away
I am travelling to school
To see you
And study.
Simplicity, thats ALL the reasons for now

I shall see how things progress
While.i.continue.my.motto.in.life
Give all with no return

I love my boyfriend

2011-12-12T02:55:00.006+08:00

HELLO ALL! Its our one month anniversary together! :)))))))
It had really been so amazing how i get to know you and be together with you!
It all seems like yesterday where you were chasing me
like a superman and till now you are still my superman and in future you'll definitely still be : )
With you Life seems more relaxing and meaningful to me : ))

Still remembering back the times you chased me
where by we first talked through Keep Singapore Beautiful Movement
we sat side by side after the whole event!
we were engaged into a conversation about our courses and the modules we took!
it was a short conversation!

Next up----Children's day event where there was this someone who came to talked to me and asked me what's my grade for my C.maths! and then i was like... Er you are!
then you replied Bernard the one in the Forum event! Then it rings a bell in my mind, knowing that OHHHHHHHH its you! Haha i'm sorry that i couldn't really recognise you! You looked different! haha! Immediately that night you uploaded pictures into the facebook NYAA and i saw several of my photos till then i started to know you are Bernard, a cameraman!

Then come again we saw each other at KouFu in our school but yet... we didn't call out to each other! I was so like kinda wanting to avoid you! cos' i'm carrying guitar at that point of time, while i knew that you all have got NYAA and i did not join you all! But then, as much as i try to avoid something, it will come back!
Miraculously, I saw you after my guitar training after i came out from the ladies!
I knew you were behind and then i started telling peishan, oh gosh! the more i avoid, the more it happens. AND THEN.... You called out my name! WOW! haha i turned back and smiled at you! ;) Then we had another conversation, this time round its about GSM- photography! I even asked if i could borrow from you your camera! I was shocked that you replied yes you can! and you trust me in handling your camera!!!!!

Then... I guessed its really a fated thing. Your event for NYAA was cancelled and you came over to help out in Commissioning event 2011 NYAA! You were as early as i was on that day! Then i came to know that you'll be joining to help us, by then i already had known you already! then, as we were all early for commissioning meeting, i asked you over to help me to take a look at my dpp and asking you if you had received it! and i even asked for your advice if i should go for dpp! then you adviced me to think about it etc and i was like telling you if go dpp also good, cos got E.A.T programme on wednesday 6pm-8pm while dpp 3pm-6pm! : ) Then you told me that you were the in charge for E.A.T programme! I was like oh okay! Then you asked me for my number!
I gave it to you, in the next minute, i received the message saying " Hello, Bernard here. C: " HAHA i did not reply but saved your number as Bernard.NYAA

Hmmmm, next up! Project Paint! Its like really another fated thing. You are a group leader, and i had a group formed up and i became the group leader. But you walked over to me asking if i did attend a briefing, i said none. So you told me i can't be a leader and you were like very desperately looking for a team and you took my team!
haha! okay, then you contacted me to pass information! then its time for Project paint! I entertained you all the times cos' its like you know none of us there right, GL-Group Leader! ;) We were two kuteee people helping the family to paint their toilet! You were really awesome at Painting, we chatted so much in the toilet and people simply kept making fun of the both of us! ;'/ Superman!
When my hair got stained by paint, immediately you helped me to wear a cap on my hair. When i said i felt so warm, you immediately blew the fan at me. When i said i was thirsty, i thought nobody heard it! but then after i painted the toilet, you opened up a bottle of mineral water and passed it to me! when i was having lunch halfway and i realised that you had helped me to open my bottle cap. Thank you for trying so hard to care for me, and kept asking me to rest haha! you are a great leader : ) i like you for being so kind and helpful
Since then, I gotten a good feeling towards you, knowing that Goh JEAN Hang Bernard do exists from then haha and slowly getting into my life : )

Then NYAA Commissioning event haha! you were mostly around me and being there for me, i realised!!!!!!!

Next up------ You found me in Twitter! Then we tweeted a little.
Then as there were NYAA activities coming up
then you asked me if i'm gonna to attend it!
From then we started to text each other....
Me taking me really slowly, replied your texts like after minutes : )
Then we chatted in facebook, and then proceed to messenger! : )

Then as we went out with our NYAA friends... we were constantly being teased by them
then i slowly started to feel it
feel the awkward moments in us

And then there was a day you wanted to sent me home being so determined
It all started just because the MRT door OPENED again! : )
Since then i gotten known the feeling from you to me

And we started to take off things slowly
and till NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
:))))))))))))))))))))))

We're happily beautifully blessedly being together (tu)

-Common discovery of us
Likes durian, honeydew sago, seafood, mayanoise, curry sauce, sotong, spam cheese, green tea, milk tea, honey red tea, sushi
Dislikes Gas drinks, fast food, french fries, potato chips
Actions eat dishes by dishes, both use chopstick the wrong way, do not have the habit of bringing umbrella, both scared of cold and likes to put on jacket, can eat a lot, order the same food, both type long messages, likes to drink plain water

^Still got more, mind block to think of any right now! :/

In this first month
we had star gazing
we watch a lot of movies
we did exercises together
we studied together
we used the same phone cover
we used the same wallpaper

To mark this first month
we brought something in common--- A piggybank (I likeeeee! So ke ai!)
Hehe every week we will take each other's $10 and insert into the piggybank!
Then we wont use it till years and we shall decide on what to spend on : )
Each month, we will continue to hunt for couple items! :P

I like the way we are
I like the smile on your face
I like how caring and lovely you are
I like how we think for each other
I like how you appreciate me
I like how you read my blog posts, as in EVERY SINGLE posts, line by line
I like how you notice me each time
I like the understanding we have for each other
I like how you entertain kids and my sisters
I like how the effort you put into this relationship
I like how you shelter me in the rain

I like your accompany

Happy One Month on 11th! :D
I just wanna to love you for the rest of my life

Hello Hello

2011-12-10T02:11:00.004+08:00

Callling out to all Poly people...........
DONT YOU ALL THINK THAT Poly is such an irritant. I seriously think that it sucks.
It extorts away my holiday, as in the mood for my holiday, such as Christmas, Happy New Year, Chinese New Year and even for Valentine's day. #THANKShuh How sucks can you be? >:(
I just need to really PLAN WELL, MANAGE MY TIME, AND JUST DO IT.
JUST DO IT.
JUST DO IT.
JUST DO IT.
JUST DO IT.
JUST DO IT.
JUST DO IT.
JUST DO IT.
JUST DO IT.
JUST DO IT.
JUST DO IT.
k, I'm physio-ling myself like again. Cos' i'm so sure that I needed this kinda mentality. I have to keep pushing myself F-O-R-W-A-R-D
Life is forever tough, and it simply bugs you from getting into your desired way.

: )
Mean while its Weekend already
I'm going back to Malaysia to visit my Grandma, its been like ages since i last saw her. I just wish to see her, spending some quality time with her, listen to her.

Well, Work hard,
for Hard work will be rewarded
^FOR I BELIEVE.

The one whom i love

2011-12-10T01:33:00.002+08:00

Hey there, (tu)! ;-)
1.11am
"Magically, the hidden words among us, but yet there's actions shown in us.
The greatest element that is shared between the both of us--Telepathy!
Our love, the unique one.
Loveyaaaa!<3!"

Just wanna say... Its so amazing how we two communicate with.
Its the mutual understanding, trusts, and accepting in between me and you~

I will do my best to know you even more : )
For every brand new day, IS A BRAND NEW DISCOVERY OF YOU! : )
Its surprising knowing all the common things/likes we shared! : )

"11.11am
Our love within you and me, are just like Fireworks!
So Much happenings and surprises! Expected the unexpected!
Love you Dardar!
Muackks!! Hugs!"

Thank you soSoso muchhhhhzxzxz for teaching me subnet!
Happy_girl_94! I wished I can score well!
Do make full use of your Saturday!
Take care when i'm not around! : )
All the best to your revision, JiaYous alright! : )

CHeeeeeSeeeeeeeeeeee~

Some thoughts

2011-12-10T01:29:00.001+08:00

This song reminds me of some of my close friends
Wishing all are leading a good life now

My mum

2011-12-06T21:59:00.003+08:00

I have to come to learn the fact that one of my friend's mum just passed away today
I hope he's fine, it must be hard, a tough time and definitely not easy.
It strikes me so hard knowing this fact, i felt it.
I got scared, i'm afraid of losing anyone close to my heart
Really, i simply can't afford to lose any...

Once I got home, my sister was crying and my mum was reprimanding her,
I have no idea what happened at all,
And my mum started to whine about it after that and i think she cried
It simply broke my heart
really.
Yet not knowing what to do when things happen is the worst feeling that i could ever felt, seriously. this is bad. it simply saddens me.

I understand that my parents hearts broke and felt shattered millions of times because of us, children. To be more micro, because of me. I can't deny the fact that i made my parents heart shattered into many pieces before
I just want to slowly fix those pieces back... as i grow older, learning more things, and becoming more sensible.. They watched me grow, they helped me to grow.
They know me the best and seen through my good/bad times

As the title mentions, "My mum"
My mum is the best woman on Earth, really
I felt blessed to have her with me, going through ups and downs with me
She will never fail to text me everyday
Her messages are really cute at times
She will wish me good luck for my tests/exams/jobs/presentation
She will ask me if i had eaten/coming home soon/what time waking up
Its her who wakes me up everyday, she is the first person i would see almost everyday
Fyi, I'm literally a pig that can really sleep till i do not sense a thing and she has to wake me up each day. and i know its definitely a chore for her to do so... and even though she complains about it but she still wakes me up...
and not only that helping me to wash my clothes, cook for me, basically do all the house chores for me.... she simply takes good care of everything and everyone in my house. Tell me, where to find such a nice awesome beautiful lady?

And I have her

Really thank you Mum so much so much so much so much so much so much
Its been hard for you........................................

I love you Mum

Am i expecting too much

2011-12-05T22:21:00.003+08:00

Hey, people. Hi(Sneeze) I'm sneezing non stop for the past 20 minutes i guess?
:'( I don't want to be sick...
I still have tests and many things to accomplish...
Oh, and i had a test today.
And i simply can't get full marks, oh, FML.

Everything is simply just so packed.
I thought December is a month to relax and chill out for another brand new year,
why does things turn out so differently?

Okay, WOW? 2 WEEKS OF TERM BREAK, <<<<<< It certainly sounds so awesome to everyone right here. But wait. Take a look at my 2 weeks of term break, how about it?
16th-18th Dec: Standard's chalet
17th Dec: Primer event of giving hampers to needy
19th-21st Dec: Exco Camp
22nd Dec: Class BBQ Christmas
23rd Dec: Primer's Christmas event
24th-26th Dec: Overseas with family TBC
& dedicating my last week of term break for my PROJECTS:
STATISTICS, OOPJ, ECONOMICS, EFFECTIVE PRESENTATION
AND I NEED TO CATCH UP WITH MY WORK

How busy am i? I can see it myself.
On a tough time now.
:(

Oh. And today was a MONDAY BLUE
EVERYTHING SUCKS TO THE MAX TODAY

Beautiful night

2011-12-04T14:53:00.003+08:00

"You gave me Hope, Love, Trust and a Life to make me, move on!
Love you Darling(tu)!!"
Thank You and I love you too

Thank you for realllyyyyy being so hardworking
Your actions speak a thousand words
Staying up till late night and for Star Gazing was simply awesome
: )
The night was beautiful

To give or to receive

2011-11-30T01:45:00.005+08:00

I had done a community service work last Saturday.
Its going to blocks to collect food items from people who wish to donate to us so that the food items can be packed into hampers and send it personally to the needy families.

People I met: They are various kinda people whom I encountered with.
Many kind-heart souls do exists! :)))) It's even more heart-whelming seeing elderly donating the food items to us even when we know that they needed it more than they give. On a lighter note, many people also want to donate however they somehow did not get the notice of the collection day, and they even offered money to us! But we do not accept cash. Its like even elderly would walk over to me after I pressed the doorbell despite the elderly having difficulties to walk! There are also people who waited especially for us to collect the food items, and then head out.

Ugly sides: On the other hand, there are people who do not open the door, or rejected way before I wanted to continue my introduction.

Happy ending: The last block we went, we receive 8 full sets of hamper just from AN UNIT! It was a lady who bought all these food items and got them prepared at the doorstep. Though I was not attending to that unit, but my group mates were shocked.
And, all of us got back to collection points happily with heavy stuffs on our both hands. The feeling was rather good! :)

Learning point:
A person who gives is rich, while a person who doesn't give is poor.
We should not rob away the chance of elderly who wishes to give, for there are really elderly who wants to help the society.
Even if they are poor, but as long as they give, their heart will be richer.
To give is better than to receive.

so..
Let's Give, if not, Let's start giving!
:D

Darling (tu)

2011-11-30T01:39:00.002+08:00

Nevertheless, Still appreciating ^.^ in my life!

Thank you for caring and loving me so much..
They were well received by me.
The word "Trust" is given to the both of us..

Thank God to have you in my life, :)
I'm blessed, (tu) which makes me a happier girl, whom felt even more cared and loved.

Jiayous, Keep moving on!
Loveyou!

November

2011-11-30T01:13:00.002+08:00

I have to believe that I CAN. Just so right. Seriously, I am so lack to confidence towards myself. Why can't I just trust myself? This ain't the first time i'm doing so!
I should have believe in myself till the end of the paper. Unfortunately, I got distracted by the thought of my classmates assuring that its confirm gonna to be the right one, but it turned not the other way. Yet, I chose to believe in my classmate.
Hey, Just what's with me? Lack of guts? Perhaps, I agree to it. <<<<<<
My 11 marks just flew so away, as in I won't be able to score an A, i guess?
Dislike this feeling :(
^Lesson learnt: Have trust in myself

Next up. IT modules are really making me feel LIKE AN COMPLETE IDIOT.
I know i'm whining, you might just want to ignore me right now...
And yeah, What I'm doing now is most probably what losers are doing yeah. Doing nothing but commenting and commenting. But yeah, I'll not be a loser, I'll definitely do something about it. :(

Seriously, Everything is piling up.
I felt the pressure drawing nearer and nearer to me each day.
And I just noticed that TODAY WILL BE THE LAST DAY OF NOVEMBER.
It just pass like an instantaneously. :(

Another disappointing fact about myself is...
I'm still building sandcastles in the air, thinking that WOW-SP-IS-THE-BEST.
I'm still possessing the thought that NYP sucks,
And I will never fail to pin-point stuffs related to NYP each day I'm in school...
Take for example, yesterday my block in NYP flooded, and I was literally jumping and jumping around with joy, and spreading to people around me.
Am i bad or am i evil? Latter, or perhaps worst.
Okay, I do felt kinda stupid now... thinking of myself doing all these actions and making all this unnecessary comments. Guess its time I should really stfu about my school- NYP. :( I have to be harsh on myself, so that I can face the harsh fact.
Even my classmates now all know about my hatred towards my school yeah. ;/
ITS.THIS.TERRIBLE. Even before I wanted to open my mouth to make a comment, they already knew that I wanted to do so. Hmm, True enough.
Making all these comments are simply useless right.
BECAUSE NOTHING CAN CHANGE THE FACT, HELLO WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!! :@
You're in this school, means you're in this school.
*Alright... As much as it's so hard to accept it... I just gotta accept it right?
Y.E.S

Assignments and projects every where.
TESTS EVERY SINGLE WEEK.
THIS COMING HOLIDAY, #WHERE GOT TIME! >:(
ITS ALL ABOUT PROJECTS AND PROJECTS, TESTS AND TESTS.
I want to celebrate Christmas and party and enjoy.
I want to celebrate New Year and watch fire works.
I want to celebrate my darling's (tu) birthday.
I want to celebrate Chinese New Year and eat till i drop.
so many wants... but so restricted. :(
Unlimited wants + limited resources = SCARCITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Scarcity is a condition in which human wants are forever greater than the available supply of time, goods, and resources.
As a result of scarcity, there is insufficient resources to produce all the goods & services necessary to satisfy all human wants, therefore CHOICES have to be made.
THIS ALSO LEADS TO OPPORTUNITY COST. :(

Sadly to say...
This post seemed to be sad to the maximum right?
:(
I agreed to a large extent...

Seriously

2011-11-24T23:53:00.003+08:00

SERIOUSLY
WHY
MY
SCHOOL
LECTURERS
TUTORS
LIKE
THAT
ONE

I.THINK.I.M.GONNA.TO.BE.SO.LOST.TOMORROW.FOR.MY.NETWORKING.TEST.
S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y
W.T.H.CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CANT ABSORB ANYTHING -___________________- AT ALL!
LIKE WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
AREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

-JUST PREPARE A 160CM COFFIN FOR ME
YA BYE

Pen for thoughts

2011-11-21T00:01:00.002+08:00

Hi people : ) I just wanna talk about my week.
My target for the previous week was not to sleep in school
Haha But target: Failed. I slept in lecture and during lab~ :(

This coming week target: Don't sleep in school & come home early everyday
Jiayousssssssssssss kcq! : )

Monday: OOP test, Preparation of the OOPJ Formal presentation, Do stats&oop Tutorials
Tuesday: rehearse presentation, do econs tutorial, NYAA AGM
Wednesday: rehearsal for presentation, prepare formal, sports(?)
Thursday: Formal presentaion, Study networking, BB AGM, ChuKe's birthday
Friday: Settle the christmas' event, chalet, Study networking
Saturday: S-L & NPCC Retreat
Sunday: Bday surprise
^From my previous posts,

Haha OOP test was okay shall wait for my result.
Monday to Thursday was so totally stressed about OOPJ presentation...
Did a lot of editing and discussion and meet ups
Finally for the long awaiting and stressful day,
Thursday morning = Formal OOPJ presentation
And yes effort was not paid off, My group was being praised of having great effort.
It felt good and at the same time, weird, to be affirmed by teacher

Though there were several duplication that i saw
I felt a little empty and misery inside of me
but nothing can be done right now
just gotta accept the fact
maybe can take it as we have the same mindset ha ha
its about the outcome just have to achieve what we came out with
with hard work, all the best, my team : )

Then my sister's birthday @ Swenses with family
this time round, its a bit special haha, Bernard came along
It was awesome, a family : ) I am happy,
Im glad it turned out to be fine
And Chu ke was a happy girl to receive good food and present that day
hehe Chu Ke ,
Just wanna wish ya a very happy birthday to you!
And I love you
thanks for being such a wonderful and lovely and cute sister to me
Always giving me hugs and saying : Love you chu qian
once I reached home, and any where
Thanks for lifting up my mood when im tired or sad
Also for writing for me letters
A nice girl, Continue to shine : )
Love you so much

Sadly becos' of primer's AGM i did not manage to cut cake with you^

Then Saturday attended the last day of the Service Learning course
Learnt about the competencies to become a good facilitator
Ha ha I wish I will be applying it in my planning of events
If its not practice i sure forget about it!
And opportunity given- Planning for Christmas event,
I have not think about it yet...

One of the more impacting learning points was the part on Love
As the facilitator was sharing her stories about her disliking her grandmother ever since young and till she was older and got more mature... then she started to care for her, just being there for her when she gotten her cancer.
And then she passed away.. as least she did not regret
This was one of the part she mentioned
And as she was mentioning about it,
Tears simply filled my eyes, as I thought back about all the chances that i got to to go back and visit my grandma but i did not due to commitments that i have
Its like all the thoughts with my grandma just came into my mind
so afraid, so wanting to sit beside my grandma and just listen to her whining and everything I miss her so much.... simply so much
I wish she's leading fine now and happily, Just hope to see her soon

Speaking about love
I really do miss a lot of my friends
so many to be listed
Wish to spend all the quality time together one fine day
:(
All of us are so busy with the workload in life right now
Wish one day the world can have "Spend day with people" Day
Shall catch with them when time allows

After the course, I went to Sir's house for a retreat meal
Saw almost every officials after a long time
Haha it feels quite weird though... Got new faces whom I am not close with at all :(
And i still prefer my officials
Managed to catch up with a few of them...
As usual can feel Sir's concern to me
and nothing else. As i thought back, its been many years in touch with NPCC.
Though my commitment to NPCC gets lesser and lesser

Then its Sunday hehe
Okay managed to revise only a bit during Sunday. . . . . . .
Tests are all coming up :((((((((
Jiayous ba!
Just came back from celebrating liling's birthday.
Haha surprise was rather good and the watch we bought for her looks beautiful on her : ) Happy advanced birthday hope you liked it !
Thanks for being an awesome friend to me alwayssssssssss!
All the best in everything you do <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<:

YAYness Tomorrow IS MONDAY
WHICH MEANS I CAN SEE HIM SOON, in a few hours time, hehehehe. : )
I miss you (tu)

& Just wanna thank you so much,
For sending me home almost everyday... I know distance is not a challenge,
But its really far, Jurong-Hougang.
I really appreciate it a lot, <3
Thanks so much for everything,
Thanks for the sweet thought and spending time with me.
I enjoyed and felt relaxed just sitting beside you even if we don't mention a single word. Thanks for the encouragement you gave me : )
Love you

11.11.11 11.11 11.11 11.11 11.11

A good week to everyone ahead! : )
All-the-besttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt,

How to love

2011-11-20T18:09:00.002+08:00

From the 1 Corinthians 13:4-8,
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

I find the the last sentence is the most important and meaningful to me.
Love always protect, I felt that with love there would be more security.
Love always trusts. I find trust will be the most important element in love.
Without trust, there would hardly have faith in anything which leads to no communication and work not being carried out.
Love always perseveres. Determination keeps love going on, as long as one is perseveres, there is still love.

"Just to push your thought processes even more... you mentioned that as long as people communicate, trust and persevere in love, love exists. So that means that love is more than an emotion, isn't it? What do you think love truly is? =)"

Idk haha I need to experience it.

I wish

2011-11-13T18:30:00.003+08:00

I wish to be free

WEEK 5
Monday: OOP test, Preparation of the OOPJ Formal presentation, Do stats&oop Tutorials
Tuesday: rehearse presentation, do econs tutorial, NYAA AGM
Wednesday: rehearsal for presentation, prepare formal, sports(?)
Thursday: Formal presentaion, Study networking, BB AGM, ChuKe's birthday
Friday: Settle the christmas' event, chalet, Study networking
Saturday: S-L & NPCC Retreat
Sunday: Bday surprise

I still want to spend time with my loved ones hehe.

Tough gets going,
going gets tough

Okay, test tomorrow...
I hope I can do it well...
Give me some confidence.

Hm, all the best for the brand new week ahead! :)

SL day1

2011-11-13T01:16:00.002+08:00

Hi I attended a SL course today
I have learnt how the different facilitation methods to target different group of people, learnt about the ingredients of an effective team work, that requires goal, roles, processes and relationship. There is this term i came about is D.I.E- Different people learn differently, I-forgotten, Emotions, control ya emotions,
also learn about the pace of my life
I can determine the pace of my life,
currently the pace of my life:Fast
its me who make it this way, getting faster and faster,
can barely breathe though haha what to do right? cos' its the fact in this society

yeah just wanna to have some positive mindset during this this coming week
cos' its gonna to be full of stress in me X.X
i dont want to be an insane womanzxzxzxz so ya

:))))))

I CAN

I CAN DO IT

11.11.11

2011-11-13T00:35:00.006+08:00

11.11.11 marks the start of my official relationship with Goh Jean Hang Bernard,(:

This^ is what I gotten from him. I never expected anything from him, especially which I know it's really an expensive item. Whatever is it, I just want him to know that the price doesn't matter, the more expensive the item might not be the best gift

As what we mentioned, "You're the gift to me" Indeed, true enough, it is.
You're the greatest gift that I ever received
Thank You so much for putting in the effort time and money on me

I love you

11.11.11 had been an awesome wonderful and great night for the both of us
--------"The timing is always right"

We watched the movie: You're an apple of my eye
Its quite nice and more towards comedy kinda to me.
We surpassed the sweetness in the movie

After the movie, its dinner at ThaiExpress
The food and drinks were naaaaaaiseeeee
I had a hard time after eating down the chili
Its seemed rather embarrassing, ain't it?

After dinner, as we were walking into the broadway in Sentosa, we were greeted by the fire works at a right timing
We then spent quality time together and chatted any topics

It always give me the relaxing feel and moments spending with him

Thank you so much for all the things you had done for me

On 11.11.11, from 1 it became 11.
Which means, from single, I had became attached.

I'm really happy to receive blessing from my friends
They felt happy for me
Its good to receive all these blessing
Thank you all from the bottom of my heart

The both of us are moving towards our common goals
Being together and pursuing studies, making a better future ahead,
hand-in-hand : )
Looking forward to our days, together, in time to come

the boy i love <3

Grateful

2011-11-11T01:01:00.005+08:00

Philophobia is the fear of being in love and falling in love. The risk is usually when a person has confronted any emotional turmoil relating to love in the past but also can be chronic phobia.

I'm grateful for people around me that spend time with me
shower me with loves during ^ period
Thank God for wonderful people like all of you
my friends they know who they are i know who they are
Without them I might not even be here right now typing this entry
Nothing can repay my gratitude to them,
the saying that me and my best buddy created was right-----
"Bu yao zhong she qing you, mian de shi qu peng you"
When love's gone, friends are still there, the ones that help you moving on~
not forgetting, family.
Therefore, i cherish my friends, and my family members
Pillar of my life

I am moving on
I am happy

:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

So anyway, shall talk a bit about school!
Yeahyeahyeahyeahyeahyeah...
Its time for TGIF? Nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Too much to do, yet so little time. /;
Forever----------Chasing after time.
I want to have the time of my life, foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~
Its like the week FOUR of my poly S2.
THATS.FREAKING.FAST.THATS.SO.FREAKING.ME.OUT! :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
PRESENTATION, QUIZES all piling up!

And...
Yeah time for some self-reflection and emo session.
Its like... I have not been a studious girl ever since the start of S2.
I admitted that I have not really studied hard once school starts. :(
Once school starts, I have been staying in nyp till at least 10pm.
First 2 weeks packed with CCAs, everyday. How scary....
Yes, come to think of it, for ^ I was so hardworking...
Just wanna say, I neglected my studies too much already..
And the attitude was not set right at all towards study...
I am a bad girlzxzxz. Never possess a right set of mind.

-I slept in lectures.
-I did not do tutorials.
-I pon lecture.
-I was late for school.
-I slept a lot.
-I everyday late reach home.

The above mentioned happened too many times in these 4 weeks of school.
I just gotta set my mind and attitude back...
Start off with a brand new week this coming Monday.
And then it will mark the 5th week, a week getting busier.

Dued to all reasons above, I have to dedicated even more time and effort into my school work. In addition, I still got my CCAs... I have to work doubly hard for my work...

For my GPA... YES... I NEED TO SCORE BETTER.........
Yesterday I went to collect my Dlist certificate. There were so many people who gotten the certificates too, so many people who did so much better than me.
I do not know why, I did not feel any joy of it. Totally no feel for it... And the mentality i was holding on yesterday was: i dont want to be here, so embarrassing.
But yeah... Yesterday during the talk one of the sentence is " You all are here becos' you all worked hard, and its time to recognize your great effort. " Maybe i should <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< Yeah..

What I like the most, and sent me to thinking was this sentence " Never assume. Don't keep thinking that you are in Dlist. " Which was awesomely said, and so true.
Must never be complacent. I have to continue to work hard.

So yeah, what's over is over. Just gotta look forward.
Think positively. And be a good girl. :P

IT modules are a great challenge to me,
exams...
From these modules in this sem, I want to say... its really tough,
tougher than my previous sem. I have to make sure my fundamental is good.

Time to be really serious
WAKE UP CAN,
KCQ

-----to the harsh world filled with hard truths, the reality

Happy 11.11.11

2011-11-11T00:12:00.006+08:00

Its 11.11.11 00.00am
I received a lovely message from HiM:

"11.11.11 00.00AM
It takes years to search for you,
It takes month to fall for you,
It takes days to find ways to get close to you,
It takes hours to start a conversation with you,
It takes minutes to try to talk to you,
BUT it takes seconds Just to say 'I LOVE YOU'
Its lovely to have you in my life, KOH CHU QIAN<3"

Thank you lovely!<3
And, I love you too. Goh Jean Hang Bernard.

^-^

He's the one

2011-11-08T01:32:00.007+08:00

^-^ The above two person were being teased like nobody's business among our friends!
Friends around us kept trying to match make the both of us together.
This made the whole atmosphere so awkward
We worked things out and we do thanked them for their great effort

We're progressing well hehe!
I realised I have been giving thanks to him everyday, ever since 28th Oct
He's really a nice caring sweet and beyond words to describe guy to me

There's just this special feeling and connection in our hearts that we both felt it and understand it. We do not know how this works though but its --- love to me
Never did I believe myself in stepping into love again
But he was determined enough, he let me know feel sense whats love

To me its like a superMAN you know?
When I needed something, Without me saying he would i-d-k-how-he-make-it appeared out with the things i needed. I find this super amazing, it seemed so magical to me

: )

I wished the time could freeze at that time when there just me and you
We wrote " I love you forever " on a green balloon and let it flew off to the sky together, the balloon is round, the sky is wide, the balloon will be finding its way up in the sky forever just like what's mentioned on the balloon
It will never end

Thank you for everything Goh Jean Hang Bernard <3
hehe

With luvs

2011-11-02T02:02:00.003+08:00

Hiiiiiii
Today 1.11.11, school was real bad for me today :(
From the start of the lessons, I could not really catch what teachers are saying.
I was like in a loss for the whole day, #amIinWONDERland?
Maybe...
My heart and mind were some where else.
Need to find them back.

Lastly my day ended off quite sweet and sudden to me
The guy B whom i blogged about yesterday confessed his feelings for me today
I was really feel down after meeting today knowing from girls that E got feelings for me, im like what the shyt. Totally ain't ready for anything at all,
then, also asking me who will i choose etc. Got so freak out that I did not mention any words after the meeting and was quiet, So pissed and disappointed in myself for having such things to happen on me. As i walked out from NYP, i was thinking of avioding these people once and for all. One of my guy friend was saying to wait for him and go home together. Coincidentally, B wanted to send me home, i was so afraid. I was like shocked to the max when I knew that he wants to send me home. He was supposed to take Bishan Train back home, yet he did not board the train. However Bishan train came first and his friends all went into the train except him, saying that he wants to go JP walkwalk, I started to notice something amiss and asked if he's sending me home and he replied yes. Immediately, I pushed him into the Bishan train but he did not manage to be pushed in by me... And then my train came, I did not board the train, i was very afraid of knowing the truth, already cannot regain my composure already still want to scare me off to death. Then also knowing the fact that my friend A wants to go take train home with me too. As soon as the door's closing I immediately ran into the train, B chased but yet the train was full and i kept pushing and pushing him OUT of the train door, I just did it... & the mrt door slammed onto him. :( IM SO SORRY. . . Then i was like okay the doors closed, he was outside i was quite relieved, But then in a split seconds, the mrt doors opened and i saw him...
I was like GOSH :'( Then he came in, and people started to leave remarks and comments on like... WA why? What's happening, why so dangerous etc... Wa why do like that etc? At the point of time, I did not bother much about the comments though it keeps on continue saying about what so ever relationship. But i was evil. I was bad, i admitted, i overreacted. I never knew i would do such a thing, but i really doesn't wanna know the fact. As B was beside me, i kept silent through-out the train ride, and then he kept asking me questions and i slowly replied it, but coldly.
As time passes by and we chatted more, things got into a more normal-case. And we were like engaging into a more relaxed conversation :D

Thats all, haha hmmm maybe i might be on stomp for doing such a silly act?
Who knows
But i did not mean to hurt him

Take it slowly,
lesser, and will be more cherished.
thanks so much for everything,
((:

Appreciating

2011-11-01T00:21:00.002+08:00

HI, there is this guy who treat me so nice and good recently.
Its like super concerned about me...
Too sweet already. I'm worried. I don't want to be like a xiaomeimei again.

But, OMG... Treat me so nice i may not know how to reciprocate and appreciate.
Though I have been thanking him...

"I do appreciate people who is trying to keep a conversation alive"

:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Hey its 29th Oct

2011-10-29T13:03:00.003+08:00

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EVERYONE

- HAPPY HALLOWEEN! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Heheheheheheeeee. I spent my halloween night @Spooktacular.
I simply grab people and run and screamed. (Thanks & Sorry = PS & B)

Haha with pictures to update you all again :)

AND, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?!?!?!!!?
2 MORE DAYS AND OCTOBER IS COMING TO AN END.

:(((((
IM SAD. NOVEMBER-PACKED WITH ACTIVITIES.....
my whole weekends are burnt.

My first week of holiday

2011-10-27T02:56:00.005+08:00

The day i look forward to: NYAA Commissioning 2011
:)

Project paint volunteery work! :D First time I felt so proud of my school, you know!
Isn't it supposed to be something so amazing and W-O-A-H! hehe. <3

they are my team mates!^

this is my hard work^ painting the pipes white! its quite tough but yet i stil did it! :D sense of satisfactory after seeing it, heheheheee.

Beautifully blessed

2011-10-27T01:50:00.002+08:00

Hey people on this Earth! Its been a long time since I posted here!
And I had been telling myself to post out all, to pour out all my feelings ever since the start of my school this new semester!

Since the first day of school till today, I have been staying in my lovely school till at least 10pm each day! hehe <<< hardworking right? :) thanks thanks!
Was in school each night to help out for NYAA decorations! Yeah, indeed was so rushing for all of us.

So yeah, there is a guy, who is called the legendary person whom I met in this NYAA club, and then we just managed to click together in one go! And. We were posted into the same event- Commissioning. Same job- Logistic. He said he would be there to help me, and will not ask me to carry heavy stuffs. We started meeting and working out together on a performance(skit) we have wonderful ideas.
Few weeks later, he has found his passion which is Dance and made his mind to quit NYAA. He left me in this pile of shyt, alone. I have to clear this mess up myself, settling the performance stuffs alone. Ended up, the commissioning did not use my performance at all.

it was really a shyt in there, planning events, doing last minutes work, and also...
making me travel all the way to yck for it...
some times its also wasted trip and not very beneficial too :(
and this fact made me so frustrated.

i want to leave
but there's one that keeps me staying, only

"& in this NYAA:
thank you for caring for me so much
i really appreciate it for being such a nice friend to me
and this friend lost to me while waiting for me to get to sleep"

Overall things went off great
and i felt appreciated through the feedback session, at least there is something that made me felt good, for once.

Next up...
BB's commissioning event.
With no rehearsals, and not much things,
I wonder how will it turned out to be like?

So anyway school was a totally hell to me for the first few days,
everything was a total stranger to me
somebody_S simply acts as though he do not know me at all
i was simply made of glass in front of so many people
i was tearing inside of me
i was crying inside my heart
i was screaming inside my head
all this gotta stop
and i can't take it anymore, i'm serious
i wonder how can s did it, and making things so simple?
taking it so likely
i do not know why
but what i knew was, i was terribly hurt...
i kept thinking that: it was all Karma. Letting karma strikes on me.
I could no longer take it, and i simply broke down and cry in my school

Through all these, there is one person whom i would really want to give thanks to,
which is CH. haha without this person.. hmmm. I do not know what to say
But just to say,
"thank you so much for always being there, at least there is someone in school who i can look upon to, someone who can eat with me, someone who i can rant on, and i simply cried to, and i looked like an idiot i swear. but he is really nice to me, thanks for going through with me thick&thin for this whole of a challenging week and waiting for me to go home together. and being just together ty for being a good listener too, and also always replying me with "ok" haha"

with all these wonderful people i met, its really awesome to have them
i do not have many awesome friends but i have a few, though countable, but i do not except a lot too, cos' these are really the ones who i can look and approach anytime.
;)

Jiayous kcq

End of my poly sem1 holiday

2011-10-16T23:15:00.014+08:00

Hello people. Today marks the last day of my semester holiday, :(
Totally NOT READY NOR AM I EXCITED FOR SCHOOL AT ALL. Oh sighs! There has been a lot of changes, ha ha ha! What the hell
:(((((((((((((

Shall share with all of you my holiday spent :D.

One thing I can't accept is that, *Self-declared. I was like a person, being toyed with feelings? As in, not deceiving my feelings, but then treating me so nice so good so loves and then, few weeks later threw me aside as though we never met before.
Sometimes i really wanted to know the reasons why, but then, come again. I'm not interested at all. I'm just simply so disappointing in myself for letting things to go on. But again, those fun and memories i had will be kept inside of me. Men are jerk.
Words are simply words. And, on top of words, ITS HONEYED SWEET WORDS.
Haha SHOUT OUT TO ALL GIRLS: Girls, i know all of you love honeyed sweet words from guys, but listen selectively, don't take in 100%, maybe just 10% or better off, don't at all. Cos' all these are simply honeyed sweet words. And you might be taken just for a substitution of boredom to guys, so, BEWARE! :)))

K, My holiday is kinda goes nicely. :)))))
It goes by CELEBRATION AFTER EXAMS>WORK>BE A VOLUNTEER>RUNAWAY TRIP TO UBIN>PACK MY ROOM! In between, got attend CCAs, and planning for CCAs, also planning for birthday celebrations, and the fact is september and october many friends birthdayyyys!

As the saying goes...
"Pictures speak a thousand words, shall let pictures filled my words for holiday,;D

Shengjie's and Fabian's birthday

Ubin trip

Happy birthday my lovely twin Charity

Volunteer work, junior kidz day!

NU NAI FEN MEI & DI outing! Oh, I watched The Socerer and the White Snake with them!

^MY ATTIRE FOR WORK, omg. Haha like doing some awesome hair wash? BUT ABSOLUTELY NO.

Family!

All these are some of what happened during my holiday, haha though i can tell you I went out everyday during my holiday! How awesome can it be rights?
I enjoyed my holiday fully, to the maximum manzzzzzz! :))))))))))))
So.. i kinda not look forward to school becos' it brings me stress :(((((!
I just want to enjoy life....!!!!!!!

During this holiday I had been through a lot of shyt too,
maybe not too much, but yes shyt.

I have learnt that in order to survive through this world, YOU HAVE TO BE REALISTIC.
There are really many hypocrites in this world. I only have like so little female good friends, and many good guy friends. I do not know why.. but can anyone just tell me why, guys treat me better than girls treat me? A smile is just a weapon, it can stab you from the back. When you choose friends, you have to be careful, you will have to know the motive behind it, though its hard to see through the moves, but yeah.
I just do not want to be a fool, like being an actress while others are the director, you know?
and, i have learnt that.. i must not give in 100%. haha, this just simply sucks to the max. /; My motto is: Give with nothing in return,
So yeah i won't expect anything in return though,

and hell yeah, i do not want to work in factory when i grow up either.
I want to study hard i want to earn a lot of money i want to have a beautiful house
i want to go university i want to develop myself into a well-grown all rounder woman
;D I want to be someone USEFUL, an asset to this world.

this holiday also made me realised that there are many scorers all around, and implying to me that my results sucks.. this world is so competitive,
the fast-paced society, SINGAPORE.

A NEW SEM, A BRAND NEW START! :))))))))))))))))))))
JIAYOU KCQ,
JUST TELL YOURSELF YOU CAN DO IT,
& YES YOU CAN DO IT!

Time to turn on chiongster mode again

Hi

2011-10-16T23:10:00.001+08:00

Though we never been contacting already
and i know you have mark an end to a chapter in your life
I wished that you're doing fine
when you're struggling, i hope you'll be strong
All the best for your A level
I just wanna wish you a very: GOOD LUCK:)))

fate

2011-10-16T02:53:00.002+08:00

Hello, just wondering how many of you here believe in fate? Haha. There are many times where i always love to tell others, you yuan zai jian! hm. So personally, i can say that i partially believe in fate. In times of coincidence, i would question myself if its fate? So my question here is does fate really exsists? God knows.

By the way, i went to watch The Socerer and the White Snake with my milk partners..haha!! ;)
Initially as i walk in the cinema, i kept saying OMG OMG OMG to myself! I can't believe im gonna to watch a chinese movie????!!!! Hahaha, BUT THE MOVIE WAS AWESOME! Was laughing out loud during many epic scenes. Haha, Not trying to say anything.. But.. THE WATER KISSING SCENE ACTUALLY SHOWED 4 TIMES manz! <<<<< S.I.M.I.L.I.A.R!
Okay...
In that show, it shows me the power of love, also, the selfishness of love.
The couple love each other so much that caused the world country to be catastrophic
But one thing for sure is, the love is real. the love is really so simple and sweet, 2 person living together, seeing each other everyday, helping each other everyday..

Its so hard to forget love

YAYness

2011-10-12T03:11:00.002+08:00

I need a break!
And I am getting it! I'm gonna shut myself from this world for 2 days,
I'll be at Pulau Ubin and I want to enjoy to the max before school starts.
I want to throw away all my unhappiness, bad memories
and start afresh once I'm backz!!!!!

THE BRAVER kcq WILL BE BACK

:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Time to hang out with nature

Thanks

2011-10-11T00:05:00.000+08:00

I WENT THROUGH EVEN HELL BEFORE THAN THIS
I JUST GOTTA STAY STRONG
STAY STRONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

GO ON SMILE MOVE ON
JUST GO ON

DON'T CRY
NEVER SHED A TEAR

HOLD IT BACK

BE STRONG
JIAYOU.

Feel like crying

2011-10-10T02:37:00.001+08:00

i miss you..
i really miss you so much...

this feel cui

2011-10-08T03:18:00.005+08:00

Hi everyone. I swear I sucks in remembering my password all the time!!!!! ;(
And this is my dont know how many times in this month that I asked to reset password for my blog. Wth manzz. Poor memory skill. Haha if I have got a boyfriend, he will be the one remembering all my password already because I will truat him in doing so.

This is bullshyt I am actually using my phone to update this post, I certainly need to practice. Its been five days and I had not adapted it. This is the longest time I took to adapt to a new phone for I guessed its because there is nobody I am constantly texting with.. Damn I kept pressing the wrong buttons sucks.

Okay anyway I am so happy and proud because I went running at night just now with a running partner. We ran to jookoon from my house and back again, non stop!! Yay its my wish;)))))))). Haha so satisfied, I want to silm down, am.hungry now but have to endure.......

Am waking up in 2 hours time for volunteer work

OMFG

2011-10-07T03:29:00.006+08:00

INDEED I GREW FATTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(((((((
Time to face the fact!
I remembered myself, telling around: MY WISH IS TO GROW FATTER GROW FATTER GROW FATTER!
Now.. that my wish has came true, and OMG :'( I FELT SO SAD!!!!!!!!! OMG..
hais!

All these happened.... RIGHT AFTER MY O LEVEL. And something bad about POLY! Got so much holiday, which means more chance for me to grow fatter. :(((((
I know im blessed by my mum for cooking so much nice food for me to eat.. and friends asking me out to eat.. my god. My life really revolves around eating&eating.
:(((((((((((((((((((

ALL MY FRIENDS RELATIVES ALSO SAID I GREW FATTER, AND I AGREED :'(
HAISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. EMO GURL!

TIME FOR " SPOT THE DIFFERENCE "

Before POLY STARTS(Before Os holiday)....

AND... LOOK!!!!!!!!!! AFTER O LEVEL HOLIDAY(POLY PERIOD NOW)

Look at my waists and thighs
I know i know :((((((
Can say puberty, can say muscles or what-ever
BUT THIS IS RIDICULOUSLY SO MUCH...................

OMG

Really determined to go on diet
if not i can really grow even fatter

Lost the best thing

2011-10-05T02:12:00.002+08:00

Hello Today was a rather messed up day for me. It literally sucks to the max!

i swear this is not a right way to start school, and i do not want to be a muddlehead when school starts, cause i know that nobody will be there for me when school starts because i have none good friend at all.

This is how my day go........
I woke up a little late and was arrived school late for Nyaa's meeting.
On my rushing into school, A driver stopped and asked me where's Blk A? I LOOKED AT THE SIGNBOARD AHEAD TO ME, IT JUST POINTED TO THE RIGHT. And i replied, i think its at the right side, I'm not too sure. He asked again, i replied haha i have no idea.. sorry!
Then, I continued walking into school and the first thing i saw was "Campus Centre Blk A" Ha ha! Just find myself to fail -______- I'm in NYP yet i don't know Blk A is the first place i walk into, once i reached school. Lol, but on the other side, the signboard has a problem too.. It pointed to THE RIGHT, when block A is just behind the signboard, #AWESOMENESS! Ha ha! I know I should not push the blame to others, so im just stating i fail as a NYP-ian.

And the next thing is... The time i came back from school! Its like... Once I reach YCK platform, I went into the train straight~ Not knowing that its a train that's gonna to terminate in Yishun. And yes, I alighted at Yishun!!!!!!!!!
False hope, I was so happy and glad that there were seats, Omg! But it stopped at Yishun. Waited for another train, #ILOVELASTCABINLASTSEAT,

THE REASON I WENT BACK HOME IS ALL BECAUSE THE FACT THAT.... I DID NOT BRING CASH OUT. I forgotten to ask for money before i left my house!!!!!! And... my wallet ONLY GOT LIKE 5CENT, YES ONLY 5CENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #OMG, seriously! Travelled all the way back home and went out again to meet up with my Pengyou for dinner! Ha ha, Hm and i passed him his belated present.

Hm been so long since i last met up with him, as usual, Topic on life~
Talking about it always makes me think again...
He says that his life was a fuckedup and i can sense it, i can see him living life like going aimlessly. Sadly to say, I think i will end up like this in the future???
I have no idea what to do in the future, AIMLESSLY. Sigh,
He said he's finding love, i said love's a B!TCH. He went the other way round.
I just hope that life would get better for him, as time pass by. And i hope he can find his true love one day, or perhaps soon. :)

"Take one step at a time-----
Don't hurry"

Shall end off with a nice song

It changed so fast

2011-10-04T05:32:00.003+08:00

You made me think and reflect on the words that you told me
Its another opportunity for me to not believe in guys, in thinking that all guys are similar, all guys only know how to say honeyed sweet words, all guys are just having fun, all guys just want to kpo and know, all guys are simply too much, all guys are the same.

Just............................

Coming back to my life

2011-10-04T05:09:00.004+08:00

Helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
I SURVIVED THROUGH MY 9 DAYS OF WORK IN THAT...THAT...THAT..... FACTORY!
Omg, Can you believe it>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>...... I DID IT, OH YEAH! :)))))
I never thought that I would survive through these 9 days, its like, ever since the first day i really wanted to back out, really wanted to GTFO that place.
If not for the sake for $500 penalty I would definitely be gone from that place.
Well.. Its really not a place for humans to work at all..
All the best to those workers over there. Hm, Most of them Malaysians coming over to earn for a living.. Really a tough job most are Mothers, they are so strong to endure through.. They really make the place a better place to survive through, by their nonsense and their courage to shoot back the Supervisor whenever he talks.
It makes the whole atmosphere to work with, with their sarcasm and crap!;D

So what did i learn from the working place?
The aunty wants to me reply: SAO DI(Sweep the floor)
haha! I just want to blog down so that few years down the road, I can know what happened to me, what i did before i enter the real working life when i have a job when i am older! i would not forget working with machines, real tiring.

working this job had raised awareness of all people around me,
many people "scolded" me in a sense of .. asking WHY.I.TOOK.UP.SUCH.A.JOB??????
hm, indeed its for the experience, i experienced it. and its hell.

i have to work hard for my future, no matter how hard its gonna to be.
no matter how poly friends/classmates gonna to treat me.
whatever it is, i take it, i take it.
whatever it is, i stay strong, i stay strong.
i can't show the weak side of me.
i have to be, i must be, i gotta be- S.T.R.O.N.G
EVEN IF I HAVE TO STAND ALONE!

I will make them the believer!

Know a few friends from the working place, i just hope that we would remain in contact!!!!!!!! And one of the friend is my senior Y3 however in a different course:)

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

After the hell, I had difficulties adjusting back my BODY CLOCK. OKAY FINE.
Or rather, its me that did not put in the effort.
Now its 515am and i'm not asleep yet! /;
So screwed up ain't it? Ha ha!

By the way, Quite a nice way to start off my Oct;D.
I was blessed a new phone--- Sony Ericsson Xperia Arc by my parents :)
ER. BUT.IHAVE.SERIOUS.DIFFICULTIES.IN.TYPING.IT <<<< was how i typed in phone! ;x
Omg, then i can straight away dial my friend and talk via the phone!!!
Hahahahaha, I'll try to adapt it soon, just...that...im...lazy...you...know...?

Anywayyyy~ I finally GOTTEN BACK MY LIFE, OF FREEDOM! ((((((((((:
After workkkkkkkkkkk! Go anywhere i like, Do whatever i want. Plan my whole day nicenice! <3

I went to Sentosa to swim with..........

haha the jurong family! the above ones is our mama, the rest daughters :)
Cute right, ^^ Yes i know, Thank youuuuu!

Sadly, Suntan fails on me :( And, I ate a lot....
Even now, I'm not asleep, I would be eating and eating and eating

I need to exercise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
& I can't wait to be associated with wildlife !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Zen Corey

2011-10-04T04:02:00.003+08:00

Hello, ^^ This above song is dedicated for you!
I understand that Os coming, Knowing that you try putting in a lot of efforts and studying hard for your subjects. This is the peak period. The L-A-S-T lap.
Whatever it is, Do not give up! :)))))))))))))
Go defying gravity!

Remember? You said you wanted to beat my scores for O level.
Haha, Like i always said, Put your horse comes!

Just do your best and be focused for this time being!
Believe you can, &YOU CAN!

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
"Tough time don't last, only tough man lasts"

Best wishes

The one i cared

2011-10-02T05:04:00.004+08:00

You can break everything I'm

2011-09-28T19:01:00.002+08:00

Hello, haha! Can you see that I'm trying to add colors to my life?
Don't wanna keep living in green world right now, though i really do have many green items, It's to the extent that strangers also know I love green!
Cause' its like a obvious only!!!!!!!!! :))))))))))

Down with 3 days of working life as an owl.
Haha! Have I mentioned whats my job all about?
Its actually a F-A-C-T-O-R-Y job packing all sorts of things like milk powder, CD, XBOX games, adobe. Its like a factory that PACKS. Packing milk powder is the most tiring thing to do! And its like standing up and pack for 12hours non-stop, and this is not like you can take your own sweet time to pack, its like YOU HAVE TO RUSH, CHIONG-STER MODE AND PACK PACK PACK. Like a chiong-staaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
This job caused me to have cuts on both my arms, its like the cuts can increase each day working there.

Working in factory with mostly aunties and young gentlemen?
Most of them are not from Singapore, hmm. OR I should say, so far i know none from Singapore. Its like... I learnt a lot of aunties languages from them.
Transparent sticker on yellow paper = EGG.
Box not glued properly = BUTT CRACK (PI GU GA HUA)
XBOX Game disc cover, the paper not align properly = NEVER WEAR CLOTHE PROPERLY.
hmmmm. Though i can't deny that there is still fun in there listening to aunties conversations! xP They are really funny people, when they gossip, complain, sarcasm to supervisor. And... the fact is that: AUNTIES LOVE XIAO DI!!!!!!!!!!!! -___-
Seeing boys, is like seeing the LIGHT, you knowwww?

Hm, this job made me realised that there are actually many people watching you do sstuffs, commenting behind your back, passing remarks intentionally loudly,
its like.. Really. This world is full of many people like this. And its all these people that CAN REALLY DRIVE YOU CRAZY.
"Hold on, and Stay Strong"

So anyway.. This job also made me know some friends, SMART(COOL)-CHEERFUL-FUNNY-NICE.
Haha, those people whom I hang out with for break time! I dare to admit that its them that make it one of the reasons for me to press on for this work..

After surviving for like 5nights... I have came to reflect and know that..
HEY I DON'T WANT TO WORK IN FACTORY JOB IN THE FUTURE.
JUST GOTTA STUDY HARD AND GTFO THAT PLACE...
Its really a lot of STRENGTH, PAIN AND ENDURANCE.
Working with machines can be quite challenging though haha!
Trying to stay awake while working makes me stronger in terms of mental strength-Endurance. Pain------ITS physically painful, your legs hurt as you stand for long hours, your finger pain cause you are dealing with heavy things, your hands bleeds cause of the cuts caused by the heavy things while packing.
All these... All these..
Haha, and yeahhhhhhhhhhhh! 3 more nights including later ON----
I will then be proud to say: I SURVIVED THROUGH!!!!!!!!!! :))))))))))))
JUST WAIT FOR ME!

P.S(I do not know how do they take it, whereby the workers can work and still be energetic eh!)

Lalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Byeeeeeeee! :))))))))))

Its just you...

2011-09-26T18:29:00.001+08:00

Brand new week

2011-09-26T17:52:00.003+08:00

Hey, Have you realised that it's Monday today!
Which means? It's a brand new week!
I hope i won't encounter any Monday blues.

I have got to work later on, which is 830pm-830am. Yes I know, I'm crazy, I'm insane.
I can't believe this either. I wouldn't expect myself to take up night shifts too!
Haha, it's a brand new experience for me. And I'm really experiencing it.
It's just like, I'm living a life of an owl. Having my days and nights ALL mixed up.
Oh well, perhaps I JUST DESERVED IT RIGHT.

There was this point of time I recalled back, I wanted myself to be a workaholic and works non-stop 24hour a day. Its like I just want to make myself really tired to the maximum that I wouldn't think of HIM at all. But right now, This night shift is really tough. I do not want it, anymore. . .
The first day was like a hell for me. We have to pack milk into many cartons for like the whole 12 hours. Okay, maybe it can be counted as a blessing that I will just have to scan the inject. But i have to stand up and scan through-out.
Strength isn't on my side.
I can't take it, I felt super weak physically but on my mental side, i was determined. I kept physcho-ing my own mind that: MIND OVER BODY.
The seconds seems like an eternal. Time just pass so slowly and I kept hoping that it can pass faster but it does not. I wanted to faint, and I wanted to vomit.
Finally ended and I wouldn't want to speak at all, cabbed home and slept.

"Tough time don't last but tough man lasts"

On a lighter note, I was blessed enough.
I have my parents unconditional loves and cares.
I have got wonderful friends that cared, who texted me and encourage me,
cheering up and endure through it.

These are really good friends whom I know for years.
Friends whom I know are true to me,
And indeed friends that i want to keep for life.

HEY, sadly i do not have many friends that cares for me, but a few will do :)))

I think I'm living a sad life, because I'm at the extent of losing friends for now.
Its all due to some personal stuffs and I seemed to be involved into it.
Maybe its my fault either? God knows.
As long as i know what i'm doing and what i did, I know it in my heart.
Slowly the truth will unfold itself,
And its definitely other's people loss who don't regards me as their friends.
Haha, I'll just move on my life with my motto: Give with nothing in return.
Because its okay, its alright.
I can take it, I'm just doing my job as a friend after all.

Haha, Have I changed?
I wonder. I think yes. I'm moving on life.
Even though occasionally I miss you
I thought of you
but it get little than the past
Now that I see couple I wouldn't be as bad as before
Now I do not get so unhappy most of the times

Its you that made me stronger
Made me think longer
Made me look into love just beyond the word-Love
I should thank you for all these

I wonder how would we react when we really bump into each other face to face?
1. Greetings
2. Ignore
3. Turn and walk off
Who one of the above or none?

Time does not heal the wound, it just distance just from the sting of pain.

Some point of time..
I just wish..
I'll..

this feeling

2011-09-23T10:15:00.001+08:00

I was happy for a moment.
But i lost to you.

im getting worried

2011-09-17T03:14:00.002+08:00

i want to run to everyone i love
and give them a hug
telling them

I LOVE YOU

Every ending is a new beginning

2011-09-17T02:06:00.004+08:00

How true is the above sentence? I think i have to agree to a very large extent.
Some times i really wish i can just wear my uniform and step into jwss and study back again. To be with my school, tables, chairs, books, white board, school bag, lining up in parade square, sitting in canteen and chit-chat with my friends, quening up to buy canteen food, wearing PE attire and running around school and doing sports, and talking back to teachers..
I want to study.
I want to study periodically.
I want to go back to the strict school.
ITS DEFINITELY LESS COMPETITIVE THERE! :(
This time round the G.P.A i do not know if i can make it well.. make it good..
I HOPE FOR THE BEST
I HOPE FOR THE BEST
I HOPE FOR THE BEST
I HOPE FOR THE BEST
Sometimes i just think that giving up once and for all will do fine
Its been so long since i tortured myself
staying up late and reflect
and seriously is sit down and blog down bit and pieces of whats going on my mind,
reflecting upon myself..
realising that i'm moving on a far too fast pace in my life..
that i do not even have quiet time and personal time for myself..
hmmm.
is this good or bad?
my schdeule is too tight to have personal time..
its like..
HEY. what am i doing?
Enjoying life each day LIKE-A-NO-ENDING-FUN

im a bad daughter
only know how to go out everyday with friends
i should stay at home at help out with house chores
cooking washing clothes and even packing my own room isn't it??
i don't know what to say..
but im hellya DISAPPOINTMENT to my parents
i fail i fail i fail i fail i fail i fail i fail i fail
i want to be a good daughter
and learn to appreciate
i want to show my graditude
i want to learn how to cook
i want to know how to cook
i want to cook for my loved ones in the future
im lousy to the maximum..
i'm sad..
i'm useless..

sitting here wondering right now: WHERE HAS MY SELF-ESTEEM GOES TO???
TELL ME WHY
TELL ME WHAT
TELL ME HOW

i know.. and i know.. and i know..
I have to figure out the answer myself
Nothing is ever easy
Nothing will go my way
Nothing goes as planned
Nothing..

yeah and its also all my fault
i guess im losing a friend of mine
i do not know what's the outcome gonna to be like
but its just that i happened to be involved
which is like a hell no.
i don't wish it to happen,
but it actually did happen

what to do?
what to say?
i caused it .. out ..

i have come to slowly accept the fact that NOT everyone will like you
i used to have this mentality(everyone likes me) but i know eventually time will draw likes and dislikes among one another
which is obviously true.
cos' this world is made up of males and females
hence it is of 2 opposite right?
postive and negative
up and down
hot and cold
north and south

its just like the newton 3rd law stated: The mutual forces of action and reaction between two bodies are equal, opposite and collinear.

similiar concept applied to life ain't it?
yeah

now only that i have broke people heart
i was thinking

all these things that i have done
must have lead me to my KARMA.
exactly like: what's come around~ goes back around.

and i hated the fact, but its the fact.

appreciation is another thing in life?
always give with no return shall be the motto in my life.
which is almost true and has been doing it..

seemed like i do not really know how to keep close good friends in me?
i really wish i can see
who's good to me
who's evil to me
who's real to me
who's fake to me
i don't wish to judge anyone
but i just want my instinct to feel right
i don't want to be a fool

i hate to pretend
tell me who loves to pretend?
seriously, i rather if there is anything just come out and settle it together
rather then let it as nothing
and let this friendship dies off
\
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-

i just wana a simple life.
is it that difficult?

FML

2011-09-14T02:03:00.001+08:00

IM THE WORLD GREATEST HEART BREAKER

Nice lyric

2011-09-11T23:39:00.001+08:00

kcq

2011-09-06T01:24:00.000+08:00

must always remember there is always this person who is waiting for you

Im really blessed.

2011-08-26T04:19:00.003+08:00

Hey..
But ya, i really wanna thank so much to people around me who cared for me all this while. Er. its like ya, i think i sucks and don't want people to like care for me.
But indeed this world and people around me, did prove me wrong.
even though those i regard as friends did not really care for me but yet ya, i will still just do my part as a friend. and so i wouldn't be expecting any reciprocation.

However, as i was fortunate, there are friends who really care for me.
A friend whom is always there for me, wishing me good lucks on my exams days, always chasing me off to sleep each night, and i know the person is waiting for me to online in messenger each night, and when i did not online, this person would dial my number and asked me how was i doing, ha ha how sweet and thoughtful this person is to me right, thank you so much! :]

Next there is this another kind soul who will text me randomly and called me up at night some time to ask me to do/say stupid things so that this person wont be afraid of exams etc. Somehow or rather, it did make me laugh/smile by the conversation. In addition, this person will also wish me good luck for my exams and will attempt to be "there for me when i emo" ha ha even though some part of it are really stupid but still, i do appreciate it very much, thanks! :]

Lastly, there is this nice and patient towards me person. This person and I figured out legendary stuffs that we thought we would never be able to comprehend at all. With this person around, Things are much simpler to comprehend, as the saying goes well: Two is better than one. This person made me from a complete idiot of POA to become someone who understands it, and is able to do it. as i slowly gained my confidence, this person gave me the words of encouragement, and from there we also got closer. coming to this progress, i'm quite proud that i can as least do the exams. really wanna thank this person so much, :]

As my different groups of friends are caring for me,
from there, i felt love, i felt care and concern.
i was touched by all these.

this feeling was simply awesome,
but i know..
and i know..

deep down,

Im cute

2011-08-26T04:09:00.002+08:00

I love this song seriously.
I love how she brought out her expression.
The lyric is super meaningful,
and I'm so loving it.

Thank God i dodged the bullet~
You showed your ass~
And i saw the real you~
Thank God i saw it~
What goes around, comes back around~

You turned out to be the best thing i never had.
I~AM~SO~OVER~YOU

I guess it sucks to be you right now...

I will just pretend

2011-08-26T03:40:00.000+08:00

Was my exact feeling for the past few days

Like A

2011-08-19T02:51:00.001+08:00

productive,productive.
fun,fun.
beneficial, beneficial.
value, value.

I'm a complex person

2011-08-15T01:10:00.004+08:00

A: Haha. You must be a complex girl.
Me: Yeah, I'm a complex girl.
A: I bet many guys must have got their heart broken by you. Haha.
Me: Why so random?
A: Its link. When you're complex, those guys that are interested in you would not be able to get hence they will be rejected by you hence it will with what i've say.
Me: Maybe you can put it that way.

Yeah, maybe can just put it that way.

"saying goodnight/byebye is always the hardest"
Is that really true?
Well. It certainly depends on who right,
if its someone who's so annoying, you would definitely want him/her to get lost soon right, and then..............
it's the other way round if its for someone who is so precious to you!

Yeah....................................................
Life has been better... for me
There're more and more people showering me with luvv,
haha i guess its vice-versa yeah.
because i have been caring for people around me.
Golden rule #1 Treat others like how you wanted to be treated.

This had been drilled into my head ever since i was a primary school kid by a F.T of mine. ;]
I realised primary school teachers of mine were all very strict and good!
They really drilled into me a lot of values/lessons when i was primary school,
Xingnan. Like a school with teachers who are really fierce, and a school which is like so highly disciplined and wonderful teachers.

:) I wonder how many teacher still remember me though! haha!

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
And ya, I was kinda affected by this matter that happened to me few hours ago.
Its like this person came to talk to me in messenger telling me that he actually went to text his ex, where by they never talk for long, but he did it and he was regretful of his actions. he said i was the first he thought of when he came online.
he wanted someone to chat with as he was afraid, he did not know if there would be a reply. and i confidently said, she wont reply. thinking like, if i were to message 'him', will he reply? definitely no. and then he came OMG, she replied. its like wow, at that instant ya, and i was sorry that i said she won't reply. haha. and so i went off saying byeeee, you 2 enjoy chatting. and he was like telling me not to leave him alone. he said it was a stupid act. its like he should not message her as he does not know how to get out. and he added why must it happened when i am already liking someone else(which im thinking its 80% me..) and now nothing's left. and i left the conversation. because i don't want to bother as it's not really related to me though. so yeah, come again. i do not know why was i so affected by him after i know such things.
is it because
i have got feelings for him?????????
no right. never at all right.
time to doubt myself.
but yeah, i don't think so.

i felt like distancing myself away from the truth
from the reality from the fact
i want to pretend knowing nothing
i don't want to listen to anything
i don't want to carry on with this

and if i were to shun him like now, which is like a obvious
can it be possible?
i just don't want things to sink in further at all
and neither would i want any feelings to be developed
its gonna to be insane for sure

#justgottabeneutral

and so, i remember saying to him
'i wish 'he' is by my side too'
and ya, anyway he also seems to be in the same boat as i do
so yeah we kinda clicked well at the first sight and then came endless topic and things to share, a nice friend i would say
someone whom i don't contact much with but if there were to be any meet-up,
we can catch up things with one another a lot.
is there some part of chemistry in between us?
we both felt so.

but yet again i really don't wanna to be involved in anything
and neither would i want to commit into starts with L and ends with E
love-hate? NAH. NO. NUUUUUUUUU.
its gonna to be real complicated

i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel
i wanna get rid of this feel

and i know i can, ;]
#secretWeapon

slowly in me
i found a h2h partner classmate and thank God i have found one-to-be
and yeah i really received lots of help

and yeah there are many great friends whom i wanna keep with me til i aged
so far i have known quite many new friends and were really awesome people
blessing me with their care and concern for me

i want to continue to care for people around me
i want to continue to spread the love around me

;]

Everyday is a brand new day
a day to live love laugh smile play eat sleep

and I'M SO LUVING IT <3.

Yay

2011-08-13T02:49:00.002+08:00

Yay! I spent like an hour doing this wallpaper for myself in preparation of my upcoming exams which is starting in another 1 week time!;D
I felt happy cos' i did it and its green!
Am so lovinggggggggggggggggggggggg it :)

Hehe, Will start my revision in proper starting tomorrow!
THERE.ARE.SO.MUCH.TO.BE.ACCOMPLISHED.
i need to do i need to do!
HAVE TO FOCUS FOCUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JIAYOU x 100000000000000000000000000000000:D

AM I TORTURING MYSELF or something?
Lol. I hope i won't go insane yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ^^

BTW. I spent my whole friday doing nothing,
literally slacking my day, to night.
AW :<
Felt super wasted which.. i kinda let myself down.

But yeah
FRIDAY IS OVER.

HI SATURADAY:)
LET ME LOVE YOU, MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS.! <3 <3 <3
let IT be beneficial :)

Time to be on bed!
GOODNIGHT,

thank you

2011-08-12T00:42:00.001+08:00

"chuqian if u need motivation just think abt ur future and think of wanting to earn money to give ur parents and be a filial daughter . this may be able to push u to chiong for a good gpa!!"

Thank you everyone

2011-08-11T01:40:00.007+08:00

NYP'MOTIVATOR'NDP'2011 <3, We rock :)

These are my wonderful mentors! <3 :) Thanks all!

I'm definitely gonna miss this bunch of great motivators whom i spent all my Saturday with! <3 Thanks all.

I will never forget the memories together,
the values and lessons i learnt.
The things i had seen, the changes made,

A SHOUTOUT TO ALL: THANK YOU! :)

Snap!

2011-08-10T02:43:00.002+08:00

I want to capture down the moment!
This moment in ndp'11!
It was indeed funfunfun!
High atmosphere through-out.
I really enjoyed myself at the floating platform ;-)
TOTALLY ROCK IT UPSIDE-DOWN.

and cherishing the moment once again! :)

However all this can only be memories,

THIS.IS.IT.

It marks the end of the chapter of my life in NDP,
Next up-----It's a brand new beginning of another chapter of life,
E..X..A..M..S...

:)

I'm sad because I only appeared so small on tv, and its ain't obvious enough at all.
Anyway..
I want to thank all the mentors for their guidance, sacrifice, time, energy exhausted all on us, dedicating to us.
And thank you exco for their hard work and bonding us together.
And all nyp motivators--- A GOOD THUMB UP TO EVER SINGLE ONE OF US!
Great jobbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb, and high spirit!

Its time for appreciation! :)

& yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss,
THANKS FAMILY AND FRIENDS FOR THEIR LOVELY SUPPORT AND WISHES TO ME <3!
ITS MADE UP MY WHOLE DAY, AS IT WAS REALLY AWESOME TO RECEIVES MESSAGES FROM THEM.
:)
I FELT NICE HONORED PROUD to be singaporean and involving in NDP! ;D

good bye hugs
good bye tears
good bye words

thank you everyone for everything

Happy birthday

2011-08-08T23:46:00.002+08:00

Hahaha! She had 3 cakes in consecutively 3 days! How lucky can she be right? ;>
She is none other than my best friend since kindergarten!!
Pei Shan, who understands my language (alien) in some form of ways!
The person who can understands me well, even before i want express my feelings or thoughts. The one who will help me and sacrifice for me.
The one whom i can dial number to despite midnight (?!)

We're both struggling in NYP, now.
And we're trying to find the reasons to love NYP as for now.
Do bless us! -^^-

Anyway, she is someone who i can talk anything with understand the sun.
Where else can I find such a good friend?
who can click with me, laugh together anytime..anywhere..!
;-)

Thanks for walking through with me more than half of the years,
the days we had together, the times we went through..

Thank you for everything!

With loves from cq to ps ;>>>>> WINKwink!

Oh my god

2011-08-08T23:28:00.003+08:00

I just viewed the video my classmates and I made last year during our National day!
Hahahaha, it was really funny man! Super funny!
I laughed, nice video made! I like ;>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
All these brought me back so much fond memories!
I do miss my secondary school friends, they are the best man!
rock-upside-down

Tomorrow is gonna to be fun fun fun.
I am so gonna to break the stageeeeeeeeeeeeee.
AW.

HAPPY National Day in 15mins time!

Just like any other,

2011-08-08T01:01:00.005+08:00

The photograph is those members of primers who attended the 'Bonding' session!
Though I went to this outing with a lazy mood but it turned out quite enjoyable for me! It wasn't really that bad as what i have expected.

This are those people who stayed for skating!
I was real scared as it was my first time trying out skating here! /;
I kept screaming like nobody's business. It must have pierced through couple of eardrums there! Especially my friends whom held and helped me along.
Several times i fell, miraculously there would definitely be someone there holding onto me, preventing me from falling! I even accidentally scratched one of my friend's arm as my fingernails are real long! YAY, so thus i did not fall at all ;>

This is my group for this bonding session- Group 2(Clouds)
We actually won the whole game! ;)
It was indeed very surprising as we were actually losing for all the rounds!
I like this photograph because all of us were laughing happily!

Okay so... this was how i spent my entire Saturday! It was awesomely spent.
However, I think I'm actually a real-slow-learner. I can't seems to get the steps right of the skating! I am those type of person who can't get it at once, but i will keep practicing and i eventually will get better.. So its those sort of person who is not smart but hardworking! ;D
So i do envy those people with quick and smart brain. They can adopt changes fast and they're really smart! There are way too many of such people in this world. How scary!
Whereas.. I do not really make full use of my brain, and rather slow in thinking and understanding. Worst still, i'm not young man! /;

HEY PEOPLE. National's day is comingggggggggggggggggggggggg!
ARE YOU ALL EXCITED??
I'M VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY EXCITED =D!
I wish i can be on tv! hehe ;>
I'm actually the MOTIVATOR for ndp this year!
DO SUPPORT KCQ! ;>
You can leave her a good luck message in face book/twitter! ;>
thank you very much!

AW. How lovely can this picture be?
Sweet sweet love, everlasting love love love.
K, CAN ACTUALLY IGNORE me as for now..
Ha ha, i just find this picture nicely taken! ;D
I like. I like.

"there must always be bad people so that we know that good people exist!"
-quoted from a friend of mine. and i like it. ;)

Time to think far ahead.
I just can't go for the short term,
I must go for the long term.
I want to be more focused.
However, friendship is forged, though not strong, but its on its way.
I'm caught up in quite a bad situation now.

I want to focus on guitar and nyaa.
I might just get out of this like after this ndp event.
But its just a matter of how.

Just like any other,

2011-08-08T01:01:00.004+08:00

missing so many of people

2011-08-07T03:29:00.002+08:00

hi friends. Recently i have been missing my grandma.. She is in msia now. Been quite some time since i last saw her, got at lesst 4months man....am sure she misses my family too.. I wonder what is she thinking of right now too.. I also dont know what i am thinking now

Its time to settle down and really reflect

2011-08-06T02:15:00.004+08:00

Hey, Oh..Oh..oh..OH..oh..Oh..OH, Its time 4 the reflection time! ;>
Okay, its another week of Friday! I realized I'm updating my blog, each Friday(?)
But, I'm so hungry now! Hey, it's mind over body right?
Now it the period of fasting, It's like if i had already eaten my dinner, but now i'm so hungry already. Ain't it like a bit too pig? Ha ha! Or rather I am already a pig now! I know right <--------------------------- Wink ;-)!

National's Day is coming! And, I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT!
BE HIGH ON THAT ACTUAL DAY! SO GONNA BREAK THE STAGE! HE HE :)
I love national day songs, though i felt that its getting more and more meaningless towards the country as years passed by.
The reason why i want to join national day parade its because i have a dream that one day i could actually be marching for the parade, and get a chance to shake President's hand. Aw, how honorable can it be right! Yes man! Thus i went to took part in national day, though it's not like someone who is marching but at least i'm a part of it.

Come to think of it, its quite fun too! :)
Values that I've learnt from the mentors.
High friends that i made, though i do not know if they ever once regarded us as one of them. . .

Should i stay or just go?

Sleep is the best medicine

2011-08-06T02:04:00.003+08:00

They are my sisters, awesome sisters.
The ones that we can laughed non-stop together with,
whom i can cuddle whenever i sleep!
who can give me hugs and love me <3.

HI I_M__A_C_T__C_U_T_E__G_U_R_L__9_4 :>

FML

2011-08-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

WANT TO COMPARE LITTLE, COMPARE WITH MINE LA.

Never ever in your eyes

2011-07-29T23:42:00.001+08:00

how fake can people in this world be right.
i will just give it a try tomorrow,
tomorrow.
let me be happy and high,
and crazy,
let me try to blend in,
let me try to talk like never before,
enthusiastic like never before,
and try to be part of the family.

&this shall determines my decision

Insecurities

2011-07-29T23:20:00.002+08:00

Hello wonderful people of this world. :)
I think my blog is plain, simple and boring.

Suddenly, I felt that all of a sudden, a group of people invaded my twitter after i logged into twitter's account.
This is quite scary, ain't it?
Actually.. i did hesitate, and yet i chose to accept it.
So maybe this marks another new chapter of my life?
I have no idea.

I would just give it my best shot.
For everything you do, just go and try your best.
Give it your best shot once and for all,
you might not know what's the outcome,
at least you've tried.

Just like I had my a.maths differentiation test today!
It was a total bull shit.
I thought i was ready for the test, but the fact was:
' I WAS NEVER READY', this was what i realised after i took the the test.
Sigh, I can't score.
I even made the simplest mistake such as putting
SQUARE ROOT 25X = 5X!
tell me! how bad can this be?
What's make it worst was: its first question, 1A.

OH sigh, thinking of it, just ruined my entire mood.
Get rid of it, exams exams exams exams!

Anyway, did marketing project with my group members after school today.
Thought that it would actually be beneficial,
but it turned out differently....
We have not really complete it yet,
THIS.IS.SO.FREAKING.ME.OUT.

Marketing presentation is like in 4days time. :(
i'm worried.
i know i should not feel this way.
i know i should have a little more confidence in our group work.
i know...i know...i know... i should not have all these negative mindset.
but.. there's some part of dissatisfaction inside of me..

sometime, i just hope that some people can really open their mouth and comment,
if not at least, sacrifice.
or rather, i should put it another way round, for sacrifice is of much a courage.
i meant, i do hope that people can at least speak out, join in discussion.
this made me really thought that...
'i would rather work with people who talk a lot, than people who don't talk at all'
perhaps..
all i need is just some assurance,
telling me its gonna to be fine..
not to be stress, not to worry about anything..
and just a little faith..

i just want to find that little faith.

-we will share the little dream;
let's us just work together;
together we make a difference-

CHIONGSTER CHIONGSTER CHIONGSTER

2011-07-28T19:07:00.004+08:00

Hello! I gonna turn on "chiongster" mood already.
I do not wish to be skin alive!

THERE IS A TEACHER WHO KEEPS KB ME in school, awwwww! Whatever :)

NEXT WEEK, EVERYDAY PROJECT PROJECT PROJECT
TEST TEST TEST
PRESENTATION PRESENTATION PRESENTATION

KOHCHUQIAN, good luck,
last lap for your poly S1! :>

"there's a place within me..."

Maybe its time to let it come

2011-07-28T18:40:00.001+08:00

Few of my friends were telling me
don't because of one love and let it affect me
don't because of one failure and let it be all failure

to..give..a..chance..to..love..

I'm sad

2011-07-26T19:35:00.003+08:00

My results are dropping...
MY G.P.A
I can't get my aim for this S1,

Hello world,

2011-07-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

Heyyyyyyy haha. Am I a boring person?
I think i'm quite a boring person, :<
So far...
I have not been seeing my long term plans, never been seeing my goals in the future.
I wished someone can shine the light and show me the way :>
I like it the way when i was given the answer, Its just seems like, me really being so enlightened. The feeling is joy.

Its been quite some time I've been updating, there were a couple of times i wanted
to update but i did not seems to have the chance too!
Its either i was too busy or i dozed off in front of my laptop!
Hm. In a blink of an eyes, more than half a year had gone!
And soon, its National's day, then follow by examinations, holiday, S2 and then holiday! Just how fast can this be?

Never been contacting or seeing him for half year.
This is so surprisingly fast.
Time has pass us by. I wonder...

What's constant in this world?
"changes"

Many changes happening.
Met up with a few of my friends in week.
I hope that they will be fine, and lives will get better for them
;-)

i seriously have to do something about it

2011-07-15T22:33:00.004+08:00

I have been sleeping too much LIKE O M G O M G O M G O M G
As much as i kept telling myself,

NO NO NO NO NO...........
If you sleep, y're gonna to fail and do so badly!
THEN A FEW MINUTES later, I DOZED OFF AND SLEPT -_-

also also also,
I BOUGHT NESCAFE FOR MYSELF to stay awake,
AFTER I DRANK FINISHED MY NESCAFE, I SLEPT IMMEDIATELY -_-

AND YA, My mum woke me up earlier for me to study/do my work,
i nuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-ed ALL THE WAY til the time i supposed to wake up for school -_-

In lecture hall,
i openly claimed that: I CHALLENGE MYSELF NOT TO SLEEP,
and THEN i SIMPLY DOZED OFF, AND JUST SLEPT THRU'OUT -_-

errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr,
THEN JUST NOW I WENT OUT AND WANTED TO STUDY,
After i took out my book,
I WAS WIDELY AWOKE FOR 5 FULL MINUTES, and then.........
I K.O there, just slept and slept for one hour I CAME HOME -_-

seriously,
WHAT SPELLS MY WORLD?!!!!??????????????
"GG.COM.SG"

forever sleeping, -/-

IM BACK TO MY USUAL SELF................................................
WHO LOVES TO SLEEP.

SOMEONE, please save me

IM GETTING BETTER

2011-07-15T22:28:00.002+08:00

I do not know exactly why, but i just know i have been thinking of you.
I miss you. Recently, esp.
Many places simply reminded me of you.
Just too much . . . . . . . .

Hey life has been quite tough for me,
So much commitment, but the fact is that, i caused all this upon myself.
taking up so much commitment, ;-) forever torturing myself, hahaa!
As usual, i felt that talking to guy friends are simpler and nicer, its just the fact that i know myself.

Sighzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxz.
I should not be easily defeated huh.;)
Watch me

i miss you..

2011-07-14T23:10:00.002+08:00

been so long since i updated. I nearly forgotten my password!
Just came back from marina- ndp training. I am so tired. I wished someone is at least here for me.
But i dare to say- nobody.
Words are indeed so cheap.
Its not that i want to emo or what, but things just seemed to be going this way! Fuck it. Aint it? I should.
Just felt that some way or rather, my life is still certainly lack of something, someone- a best friend.
Notice the word here, best friend. Up till now i only have one.
I just felt that yeah- hypocrites all over this world. This world is cruel, and i strongly believe that human creatures are the most scareist thing on earth. Thats from the perspective view of mine. So what if my result is good but yet i just felt an emptiness in me..
Like seriously, in search of finding it..
I miss my past, but i know its no point looking back. So yeah, i have to adapt my mentality..
All these came from me yeah, its me- the happy girl 94.

I want to be like you

2011-07-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

Another week of school

2011-07-05T23:16:00.003+08:00

One week of school had passed, that's so fast! and yet, scary!
Moving at a too fast rate, :(
And, i finally had a chance and time to cut short my fringe!
Some of my friends told me that i cut bangs was not nice, long side fringe nicer!
Whatever though! ^^ at least its short now already.

So anyway, the news was a blast about my school: which was on fire!
and yep, its the fact. :<
That was so embarrassing man! it all published over the news!
When the fire was on, I was in the school!
Its like I went to school in a high spirit to view the speech day!
But yet, half an hour after I arrived at school, there was fire -_-

One of my friend actually realized that there was smoke from one of the classrooms!
Followed by it was a very strong burning of plastics smell!
I sensed something so amiss, but yet i saw people walking around as normal, and busy with their preparation for speech day!
So I thought was some mosquito killing smoke or what.

But then several minutes later, the teachers shouted,
THERE IS A FIRE, EVACUATE TO THE FIELD NOW.

EVERYTHING WAS SIMPLY VERY R.E.A.L!
THERE WERE SMOKE coming nearer towards the canteen where cadets were training their marching. So i headed to tell officials that THERE WAS ACTUALLY A FIRE.
But, they don't seemed convinced.
so ITS W TO THE E.

and yeah, people were still walking like 'ETERNITY'
seriously, no sense of urgency at all.
but yeah i know.. can't be blamed though, cos' there were too many 'fake fire drills' yeah?
WHEN IT COMES TO BE THE FACT,
-'it just seems too fake to be the fact'-

so yeah, super disappointing with the world.....
i wonder how will us all be, in the future?

But speech day still went on as normal after getting the green light from the officers. The speech day concert was a total awesome! its like my first time watching you know! been busy with NPCC each year!
Anyway, i super love the theme for our speech day too! ;-) A-W-E-S-O-M-E!
Also managed to see many teachers that taught us when we were secondary4!
A good catch up! ;-)
Miss so many people, school, etc.!
I wished i can wear my pinafold and be a student again :(
wearing school uniform is cool and looks smarter!
Now that its in poly, made me felt so 'old' -- 'adult'
like no good only :(

I wanna to be young!4LIFE!
youngception only!

Hmm, i had my longest sleep in my poly life, the previous night, 10 hours of sleep from night 10+pm to morning 8+am! And i love it, that's why i am here typing my post now, energetic! :)

My energy level simply goes down, for the week!
Now its the project week, so many projects coming up! and there are tests coming up too!
so many things to catch up with, the train is moving too fast for me.
any kind driver can just simply U-turn or slow down please?
Love you.

:)